life

2009-11-15T21:02:00.006+08:00

meet my advisor :)

meet my finance minister :P

MEET ME HALFWAY

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, I'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes I'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl what's up, what's up, what's up, what's up

Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Its been ages since i last update this blog simply because i have moved my addiction to FB
where thought can just be poured out
I been doing very well lately and lots of things been happening
bad or good that's life too me
but knowing people around u care for your presence and care for your well-being is already well enough
i been busy with APEC and work and its a month left before i officially take my blue uniform and laid it out on my balcony

there is so much to update and i have simply no idea where to start
been searching for jobs all over and i apply for civilian @ traffic police and insyallah i'll be posted there
need to take up studies there after and fam's been supporting me and so

as for friends,i do miss the dancing clan and some
but now i have been meeting lots of people,
some are too good to be true and some are too true too be good
as for love life i been not searching coz i believe that it will come if it has to come
even it means going by PIE CTE AYE SLE BKE :)
In Him I believe and trust
i miss reading Mama's Nora blog
get it done and paste the url on my chatterbox please :)

APEC has been great too
the food and stuffs
i couldn't ask for more la
today kena standby from 3-8pm only
then had karaoke at base and sing our hearts out
man im simply need to train my 'fugly' voice :P

and yesterday went to Dempsey Hill to chill out @ OOsh Bar
a chill out place to celebrate Rina's Birthday
cool shit and she had a great time and go to my fb laa to see the pics
i think thats all for now :)

2009-07-28T08:00:00.000+08:00

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Wow ..
Its been so long since i last update till i dont know even know how to start
been busy with work chilling and of course FACEBOOK
life has been great to me
alhamdulilah
work is getting way out of hand but nothing i cant manage
been going out for sheehsha meeting old friends and chilling with my work mates
i am going to ORD in 5 months time and i really gonna treasure the people around me before its too late
missing my lovely friends such as aiyee whom i have not heard for a long time
my lovely shada aty and some whom i deserve to miss :)
miss reading mama's nora blog coz of her juicy updatess(;
and saying that,today is Nurul's Birthday,her one and only daughter
Happy Birthday Girl & Best Wishes & I Miss You
All The Best In Everything Sweets

ANYTHING.
Find me in FB
hykell.hykell :)

2009-06-22T00:17:00.004+08:00

BOOM BOOM POW!

I'm on the supersonic boom
Y'all hear the space shit zoom
When when I step inside the room them girls go apeshit, uh
Y'all stuck on super A-shit
They're no fast stupid a bit
I'm on that HD flat
This beat go boom boom pow

HELLO
Its Been long since i last updated this blog
been either too busy or too lazy
Work Chillaxing Outings Johore
i been doing good though
tired and plain lazy as usual
and thanks to SHIKIN Doll as she kept pestering me to update but
she also the same

Yesterday was my Off day and decided to meet Shada For A Meetup
and town and we walking around when i bump into Ifah and do not hesitate to took pic with her
then follow shada go around and then go Boders look for a card for her BF and saw a Ipod Cover Case and cheekil ask her buy for me and she did.. OMG thank
u eh shada and i owe u one
and so we walk around ate @ Mac and saw few people and then head back home. Lazy!(:

2009-06-08T09:37:00.003+08:00

HUSH HUSH

Oooooh ooooh
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain.
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never asked for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little in the conversations
There isn't anything that you can say.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me and listen to me because,

its been long since i last update and lots of things i wanna update but do not have the time to do so or i was simply lazy to do blogging
life is pretty much happening and cool
loving my simple life and work has been tiring but no complains
much more active in FB and thats all
MSN is a must (;
its been long since i last drive the rented car
if i wanna buy car
KIA is definitely out
Suzuki Swift Sport Is In for me ((;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUU
& Happy 23th birthday to my cousin Fyla
Semoga Panjang Umur Murah Rezeki yeah :]
i know u owe me present but u have to give me first before i give you
then its call Fairness and Lovely (;

I heard about the painful story my bestie had
she knows if she reads my blog
i dont wanna say her name because i dont want her to feel that i am embarrassing her
but girl u got to move on
i know u are about too
i simply dont understand u because i am not you but i make it point to feel u
be strong and think of arwah 'ABG'
mungkin takde jodoh diantara satu sama lain
mungkin ade yang baik akan datang
i may not call or text u everyday but that doesnt mean i dont care
u are part of my living life and i never forget u or your family
i do care but time permits us from meeting right?
i am gonna meet u soon okay darling sister
be strong and think positive
he can go and die and rot to death
so much for telling me he stay faithful
WTH ,, Boys? my genes tapi memalukan
and just so u know mama's blog is where u look for solutions and also remedy =)
just remember my kickass word to keep u going because i believe in myself
believe in this quote
"Vini. Vidi. Vici."
I came. I saw. I conquered."
You have a can do attitude in life and will accomplish your goals
=)

and yeah met up with zila's sister yesterday
lookin great and bubbly as usual
walking down the aisle 5th July and i make sure i must come on this special occasion
because i miss Zila miss her miss the family
and i hope i get to see F.I.S and other Familiar Faces
simply cant wait =)

2009-05-27T22:57:00.001+08:00

I Just Wanna Love U

Will you ever be the one I love
Can you see me by you're side
Baby you're the one I dream of
Girl come join me on this ride
Girl you ever see the things I see
Baby girl come fly with me
I just can't wait to get you on your own
I got so much love I wanna show
You know you got it
And you know I want it
I can't wait it, take it
Baby, baby, baby...

SHAG!
i am so damm tired,lazy sia to update blog (;
been busy working and running errands
took a rented car from another company but this npt so good
Kia Rio and itss fuck up
halfway stalled enjine and cant move at all
dont know why sia..
anyway working tommorw morning
and i need to rest coz i had tenni game and pick up my bro ismail then makan and sort and met his gf after that
k sleepingtime(;

2009-05-19T00:22:00.012+08:00

LOVE IN THIS CLUB
I do it for the ladies
I gotta keep it hood
Where we at Polo? ('EY)
I see you
Yo keep doin' you right
We just gettin started
YEAHHHHHH MAN

Happy 20th Birthday To Me =)

This is what i called my big brother
who teach me about simple things in life (;Linda & Ismail
walking down the aisle next year and i am gonna be their best man (;Coli kape rina?thanks for everything(;My cousin Dilla & me (;

alright my blog is full of cobwebs everywhere
and its been lost since i last update
been busy with celebrations and work and tired of blogging
i just celebrated my 20th birthday last Saturday at Bellini Grande
its located at Clarke Quay besides Liang Court
the initial plan was with Ismail Lindaa Rina Norman Myself & Cousin Dilla
so i was driving my Fiat with cousin and we met first and had dinner while waiting for them
so around 11plus we met them and i was already smiling coz its been long since i had gone to a club and have fun and few people to celebrate with me would be better .
we got in free as Rina's sister was working there and we were helluva enjoying ourselves
and yeah before my birthday i already told Ismail that all i wanted was and iPod Touch and thats all and i got "it" from them and i continue as i goes from here
so when it came to open the presents
of course la feeling nervous
so the first i opened i saw a box and i thought it was iPOD Touch & i was gleaming in quiet and when i opened it as a damm empty box drawn and u can see the pic here

Thanks ! Ipod Touch NOT

so i maintained my cool & opened other presents (;
Rina & BF gave me a polo tee from cotton on
Linda gave me an original Levis Belt from Levis
and last but not least Ismail finally gave me and iPOD CLassic (:
shared with linda (:
i was so elated and damm overjoyed and after that we were already listening to the live band and dancing at the podium and after that we went to sit down and here comes the crucial part
i was listening to the band making annoucement on birthdays when i heard my name being called and i was supposed to go up to the stage and cut the birthday cake with some others
damm shy sia and i was overall very happy though(;
ended around 3am and i proceeded home by sending my cousin dilla home and then me
thanks to all that make it happened
more pics are at my facebook(:
Linda & Me
sister..u always been a part of me no matter what because i remember days u been there for me and all and i appriecate u for that
thanks for making it happened(;

2009-05-15T11:55:00.002+08:00

KISS ME THROUGH THE PHONE
Baby you know that I miss you
I wanna get with you
Tonight but I can not baby girl and that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now
So baby kiss me through the phone
Kiss me through the phone(I'll see ya later on later on)
Kiss me through the phone kiss me through the phone(see ya when I get home)

Fuhhhhhhhhhhhh
blog is full of bacteria already
its been long since i last update
been busy working and driving my Fiat Punto
rented it out for the past one week and its cool but its affordable to me
been busy wiht work and going to Flyer last night shift on Wednesday with boys
then ate at Sakura and off to work,and i am damm shag
went to JB yesterday and here i am slacking at home and i have to work morning tommorow and its my
20th Birthday tommorow alhamdulilah

i just hope it would be a memorable birthday for me
i ahve nothing to update yet
so see u later(;

2009-05-07T20:07:00.005+08:00

LOVE DONT COST A THING THING THING BOOM
When I took a chance
Thought you'd understand
Baby credit cards aren't romance
So you're tryna buy what's already yours
What I need from is not availabl

e in stores
Seen a side of you that I really feel
Doing way too much, never keep it real
If it doesn't change, gotta hit the road
Now I'm leaving, where's my keys?
I've got to go

Hey
i woke up quite late today
around 12plus but still feeling sleepy
slack around before getting ready to collect my license
Mak Long Called me up to inform me mine is ready
it feels good isn't it to work in Traffic Police
u can get your license done in a week
although when taking my TP test was a serious nervous
alhamdulilah and i am now thinking of getting my Bike License
2B but Fam doesnt allowed and if i were to go against them
something bad might happen so i dont wanna risk it
license turn out to be great then expected
after collecting went home and rest before going to dad's shop sent him stuffs
and i reached home around 8pm and soon its sleeping time
Tomorrow morning shift and dad's gonna help me collect my
Fiat Grande Punto and not Fiat Buto eh
at Sin Ming and planned to drive tomorrow night
feeling nervous but i got to learn man
i am so cashless for now
Pay Day in few days time and My Birthday in Few days time too
hehs and what shall i get for myself?
a Navigator or map book would be good?
Bloggers?
Present please and just kidding
alright i got to go and oh my just now went i see taht thing
its so fat lorr (;

Finally a D/L (;

Hope it stays forever and ever and no Points=)d

Thats all and Mum already sound me to get a car
and i am so gonna get Suzuki Swift Sport Yellow=)
Insyallah if rezeki murah
Amin (;

2009-05-06T17:25:00.016+08:00

I KNOW YOU WANT ME

one-two-three-four
Uno-do'-tres-cuatro

Rumba (Si)
Ella quiere su Rumba (Como?)
Rumba (Si)
Ella quiere si Rumba (Como?)

Si e' verdad que tu ere guapa,
Yo te voy a poner gozar
Tu tiene la boca grande
dale ponte a jugar (Como)

one-two-three-four
Uno-do'-tres-cuatro (Woooo-ooo!)

[Verse 1:]
6 to tha clock, on my way to the top uh,
Pit got it locked from brews to the locker,
All I.P uh, big and packer,
That he's not, but damn he's hot,
label fly but Pit wont stop,
got her in the car, quit playin' with his (Como?)
watch him make a movie like Alba Hitch Hock, ha Enjoy
Wedding Of The Month

Its been days Since I last Update my blog
been busy with events work and stupid tagboard shits
but i dont really care because i dint create any nonsense
so i believe i have my rights to be happy and happened today is my 1st off
and woke around 2 and do my stuffs and decided to update about my Sunday Events
My mum's last sister is finally getting married to her beau and alhamdulilah
it went well although there were certain cock ups that happened but
mereka berdua selamat diijakabulkn (:
The Wedding Bride Too Bad My Borthers IS not There To Witness This ):It makes my Family Complete with Another 2 Cousins ANak Die HOT !!
Love Of My LIfe
Advisor till end of time
my smile my laughter my cries
my character my personality
thanks you Ma
i love u more then anyone who loves you
It Be A Family Potrait If The Other 2 Was Here SIGN kalau nak baby Sah (:This is my cousin yana
Gorgeous isnt she
Mostly my cousins are all woman with brains and looks
=)
More Pics can be seen at my facebook account
i wish and pray for the happiness of the newlyweds
faster2 make babies and lead a happy and blissfull life
we were always pray for your happiness
till death do u all part
(correct right)
DONE

alright back to my tagboard issues
seems there are many posers here
my name and my face must have taste delicious huh
whatever it is i dont care about what u are and what u think
u got yourself a BF u dont needextra
BUT
i be there if u need me and nothing else
i dont wanna be labelled a fucking Busy Body
and i dont want your BF or whatever to sibuk2 Read my Blog okay
u are very nice girl with brains and i appriecate you for that

Imah Sweetie
OUr Birthdays are coming and i have yet to get you something
but definitely i'll buy u something precious
and i wish to say its good to stay as friends rather then RUSHING
and get ourself HURT and at least we have no commitment yet so we can lead our life peacefully
but we do care for each other right?
I thank you for that
for BEING HONEST and SINCERE
=)

My Birthday is coming in 10days time and i am so eager
dont know whether to have a mini celebration or stuffs
turning 20 this year
alhamdulilah hope my life would be full of happiness and successful life
=)

ADAM's Babu Cukur Rambut's

but never mind for the sake of my colleague who teached me everything about Traffic Police but SAdly the idiot Face Not Taken as he was busy with his wife handling guests

This Is Darryl and GF
my regular in my Team
always disturb my ears and myself
but a nice guy at heart and well-versed
and the GF so Tall and Pretty
I like this part
This IS My Team Leader
Kak Juremah with her 2 beautiful daughters
She has 2 more sons
a TL who had near-to-perfect Leadership qualities and very caring and takes care of of welfare
and i didnt say she's perfect beacuse i dont want to make people think she is right in everything
we do have our sour days but NS life in Traffic has changed me and no one can ever change that

This Is My A.Team Leader with his wife
Dirty Sexy Money Man
very nice guy and only at times behave like 25year old
T
This Is Adam's Son
Muhd. Danish Afian Bin Adam
cute but he was crying because i dont know how to really carry a fragile baby
but he smiled before that
just like the father =)
kak Ju with Danish Afian

alright thats all
because i am so shagged

2009-05-03T04:21:00.002+08:00

DONT SPEAK
You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Shag
i just came back home and i swear i need sleep
its been a long day,it was my first off and slept late as i went after night shift to get my lapppie repaired and phew i dont have to pay a single cent
after that reach home around 12plus and slept for about 3hours
when my makcik called asked me go nenek house to help carry things
and my mum's last sister getting married in hours time and i am so gonna pray for her happiness
i wake up and got ready though although i was damm tired
help carry and then go to the chalet and went home get changed and go out again to the halet
met ismail and linda and chill and slak with mail after sending linda home and reach home and hour ago and ironing all my clothes and after the wedding go to adam's cukur rambut

and i think thats all and its pictures time tomorrow

2009-04-28T20:58:00.002+08:00

UMBRELLA

You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share

When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'm a stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrellaShikin (;
THANKS to you shikin for also being there for me when i need someone to talk to
its surprising isnt it that we can really rely on each other
u got your love problems and u never fail to come to me
and now we can fight who's gonna drive and stuffs
but i am prettty sure u gonna drive fast cars and speed
because i am gonna lay low and drive slowly
because i am still shocked and i am a bit scared to drive
whatever it is we plan one day okay
make sure HAPPEN (:

thanks again for that little post
see thats why i named u shikin doll (;
and we must buy something for our clone
for the baby and not her
and my birthday coming and u better get me something
ooo
i hope i am gonna try your SUV (;

this is for you(:

2009-04-28T17:45:00.002+08:00

LET ME

I been watching you from way 'cross the room won't cha come and rock it out with me
You catchin' eyes like you catchin' ties
Over here's where you wanna be
It's so familiar, like we met somewhere before
And I'm tired of waitin' baby while you still obey me

feeweet =)
alhamdulilah syukur
the day has finally come
i have pass and obtained my CLASS 3 License
thanks to Allah and parents and my lovely cliques for the prayers and sorts
without you guys
i can never go this far
i really hope those who have failed
dont be disheartened
continue and obtained it

i wake up verly early to get ready
been doing extra prayers to get me by
i went for the warm up at 0830am and i flunked and kene fucked by my own instructor
that didnt bring me down
instead i told myself i can do it
and the clock strikes 10am and i had to report to the room
i was kinda nervous and heart was not intact
then the TP instructor called my name and asked me follow him to start the car
i swear i was very nervous and i checked all my blindspots and everything
did my circuit in10mins and off went to outside and after 5mins
i was told to turn back and follow him into this room
so while he was printing out the results
there i was chanting last minutes prayers
and then he called me
"haikel, u need to check your mistakes but i am proud to say u passed"=)
i was overwhelm and wanting to shout but i just kept vigil and i was told to watch a
10 mins video on road safety
i was shocked when i was given 4points overall
i was super duper happy and i need to get my license done tomorrow
Alhamdulilah
then Ismail pick me up and we went to Johore to pump petrola nd way back to Singapore
time to Buy Car?
NAH!
time to rent first
hehs

to all that has wished me and so
especially Aiyee and her family who prayed for me during their Subuh Prayers
Thanks alot and i love u all
and not to mentioned my loved ones
(;

2009-04-28T05:50:00.002+08:00

AMERICAN BOY

Can we get away this weekend?
Take me to Broadway.
Let's go shopping baby then we'll go to a café.
Let's go on the subway.
Take me to your hood.
I never been to Brooklyn and I'd like to see what's good.
Dress in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker's looking Fresh to death, I'm loving those Shell Toes.
Walking that walk.
Talk that slick talk.

wake wake up
early morning i am all wake up
going get ready and lookin fresh then ever(;

and for your info
i am nobody's boy
=)

to the people that tag me
thanks yeah for replying
so sweet of you
:)

2009-04-27T14:59:00.001+08:00

REHAB
Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden
You went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock
That spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

TIRED
i am so tired today and thank god i am not hitting to work
just finish my practical &
alhamdulilah it went well & hope it went well tomorrow
i am feeling a little giddy and i seriously need to sleep

and i think thats all i wanna update
tired laa(;

2009-04-26T23:29:00.003+08:00

LOVEGAME
I wanna kiss you
But if I do then I might miss you babe
It's complicated and stupid
HYKELL

i am so busy now updating blog and chatting with few people though
writing my notes down and i am getting nervous as days goes by
but i believe in myself and Allah S.W.T and my fellow parents and loved ones that say a little prayer for me(;
i was on leave today because i was having my pratical at 1130
supposed to be morning shift today and thought wanna wake up late
but this Irwan keep calling and then Kak Ju ask to buy foood
so why not just do them a little favour and bought their favourites
then around 1115 went off to my pratical

everything is quite well
just my parking sucks and i hope i can correct it
and Instructor patient but hot tempered SIAK
but its good for me as i can learn more
been reading my books and writing notes though
i pray all goes well on Tuesday
and like Isha said
'Niat Mesti Mau Baik Kell"
and its true and i hope i can drive my parents around soon
insyallah amin

My Team had planned to hit Johore on Wednesday
our second off to go YummyYummy
makan2 as Out TL & DTL and supposely regulars to Treat us Food
and i cant wait and lucky passport tak MATI/Expired
hope all can make a move and go(;

supposedly tomorrow is my night shift
but i got practical and planned to hit Aiyee's house tomorrow after i am done
its been long since i see your face and your familia
gonna hug u when i see u sister(;

and i was chatting with shikin
SHIKIN DOLL
and fun la because u keep disturbing and telling me your life stories
and i just wanna remind u
love is pain
without that u dont even know what is love
i maybe be a good listening but at times
i dont pratice what i preach because its simple
i am not perfect but with my energy
i shall go all out for you my friend
like i said
fall and stand up again and learn from the past

and if u all free
dont forget to chant this little prayers
Ya Qawi Ya Qawi Ya Qawi
its good you know
thanks eh Isha
=)

i think its time i settle down on my notes and get ready to do a backflip
and sleep(;
and Imah thanks for making efforts to repair whats left(;

and to Nurse (;
thanks for the concern
i love the attention (;

2009-04-26T21:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY
if u are happy and you know
u clap your hands
*clap clap*
if u are happy and you know
u clap your hands
*clap clap*

In the next half hour, tackle as many of the following suggestions as possible. Not only will these tasks themselves increase your happiness, but the mere fact that you've achieved some concrete goals will boost your mood.

Jay Gosney

1. Raise your activity level to pump up your energy. If you're on the phone, stand up and pace. Walk to a coworker's office instead of sending an e-mail. Put more energy into your voice. Take a brisk 10-minute walk. Even better...

2. Take a walk outside. Research suggests that light stimulates brain chemicals that improve mood. For an extra boost, get your sunlight first thing in the morning. Find the best walking workout for your exercise style.

3. Reach out. Send an e-mail to a friend you haven't seen in a while, or reach out to someone new. Having close bonds with other people is one of the most important keys to happiness. When you act in a friendly way, not only will others feel more friendly toward you, but you'll also strengthen your feelings of friendliness for other people.

4. Rid yourself of a nagging task. Deal with that insurance problem, purchase something you need, or make that long-postponed appointment with the dentist. Crossing an irksome chore off your to-do list will give you a rush of elation.

5. Create a more serene environment. Outer order contributes to inner peace, so spend some time organizing bills and tackling the piles in the kitchen. A large stack of little tasks can feel overwhelming, but often just a few minutes of work can make a sizable dent. Set the timer for 10 minutes and see what you can do. In that time, take a quick look around the house and see how to get organized using everyday items.

6. Do a good deed. Introduce two people by e-mail, take a minute to pass along useful information, or deliver some gratifying praise. In fact, you can also...

7. Save someone's life. Sign up to be an organ donor, and remember to tell your family about your decision. Do good, feel good―it really works!

8. Act happy. Fake it 'til you feel it. Research shows that even an artificially induced smile boosts your mood. And if you're smiling, other people will perceive you as being friendlier and more approachable. There's no need to walk around in a constant state of worry. After all, what's the worst that can happen if you bounce a check or leave wet clothes in the dryer?

9. Learn something new. Think of a subject that you wish you knew more about and spend 15 minutes on the Internet reading about it, or go to a bookstore and buy a book about it. But be honest! Pick a topic that really interests you, not something you think you "should" or "need to" learn about.

2009-04-25T12:56:00.004+08:00

SHUT UP AND DRIVE
've been looking for a driver who's qualified
So if you think that you're the one step into my ride
I'm a fine-tuned supersonic speed machine
With a sunroof top and a gangster lean

So if you feel me let me know, know, know
Come on now what you waiting for, for, for
My engine's ready to explode, explode, explode
So start me up and watch me go, go, go, go
AISHAH aka AIYEE =)

hello!
i wish to blog about someone today
and the person's name is aishah
we have known each other since i was secondary 3?
so around few years we have known each other
and we went through different levels of friendship i must say
and the reason i blog about her would be elaborated later
we dance together and we do bad thing(at times) together
life was full of surprises and it went well i must say

Then she became attached with friend of mine whose heart is made of gold
whom u think would not last but actually it does
this person really take good care of aishah's heart
and yeah not to mentioned her family
Allah must have loved them so much because of their devotion towards Islam

i could remember that night
i was super lonely and super down because of problems i had
but they know i am strong person inside and i still can remember the text aishah gave me
and it goes like this
"Haikel,if u have any problems of all sort,dont forget that u have me and saiful to melt and downpour your problems and sorrows"
and it was touching because i used to believe a tale that goes like this
when your friends become attached
they forget you
and its just so natural
that tale sucks because its so not true
and that fateful morning
her brother passed away and it was a sad moment for her
but it changed her life a lot and i have never seen my friend change from so good to superb
but all of us had flaws too and we try to change in whatever we can
i am full of respect for the family you know and we still keep in touch
and please forgive me for my sins loves

and jyeah one more thing
my dear aishah had passed her class 3 people
and i am so gonna announce here
alhamdulilah
berkat doa keluarga and abang is really happy right aiyee?
i am so proud of youa nd mine's coming
i am so scared duper scared laaa
but i know i can do it

aiyee
i hope u like the post and we meet soon okay
u are missed and everytime i look at your blog
it reminds us of our childhood thrils
=)

and jyeah i miss my

2009-04-25T00:12:00.006+08:00

MAD
Shes starin at me
I'm sittin wonderin wat shes thinkin.
Mmmmm
Nobodies talkin
Cause talkin just turns into screamin.
Ohhh
And now it's I'm yellin over her
She yellin over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening.
[and wats even worse]
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

SHEESHA SESSION WITH IDIOTS =)

It was my first off today and it was damm tiring at work
woke up at 3pm and just do my stuffs
text my bro asking him wanna go sheesha
and he agreed so he picked me up after magrib and proceeded in picking up linda and liza
the liza is kepo wanting to follow hahah
so we had dinner @ mackenzie road and proceeded to Al-Majlis
and had sheesha and had tons of laughing and i am so lazy to update
gonna turn in early i guess and tomorow meeting my bestfriend Shada to accompany her for a while and i miss her man =)

2009-04-21T20:46:00.003+08:00

HEARTLESS
In the night I hear him talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless (heartless)
How you be so heartless Oh
How could you be so heartless

FUCK
this the first sentence that came out
im so not in the mood and i dont wanna vent it to my loved ones though
let me briefly explain here

i message my ATL to informed him if i could take E leave tomorrow or
MC as i am having diarrhea after our in-service today and he replied up to u
and i felt something wrong and gave him a call in a nice way hoping he understand
there he goes berserk in the phone and WTF
we colleagues understand the way u handle things but this is not how u should treat me
u are old enough to be my dad and for that i respected u with great honours
u dont have to compare me with anyone greater because it doesnt make any sense
but i be the better one by saying sorry and told u i would come to work although i am dead sick
watch me 'Dad'

and i am damm shag
i miss my loved ones and day is coming (:

2009-04-20T11:19:00.002+08:00

BAILAMOS

Tonight we dance,
I leave my life in your hands.
We take the floor,
Nothing is forbidden anymore.

Don't let the world in outside.
Don't let a moment go by.
Nothing can stop us tonight!

?Bailamos! - We Dance
Let the rhythm take you over...
?Bailamos!
Te quiero amor mio - I want you, my love
?Bailamos!
Wanna live this night forever...
?Bailamos!
Te quiero amor mio...
?Te quiero! - I want you

I have yet to update about Batam
but when im in the mood okaay
now im feeling so sleepy and moody
shut my cellphone simply because no mood and saved bills
hope my loved ones are doing great

and take a look at my tag board
an idoit tag
but simply an idiot tag la saying was her ex
and its so shocking coz i dont recalled having an ex by the name of idiot
and i never call or being called papa
its so the zaman .......
alright back to sleeping baby(;

2009-04-17T23:34:00.001+08:00

BATAM Post Would BE updated SOON(:

2009-04-15T15:42:00.005+08:00

PUSH
When you need it
Girl I try to hide it
But I can't escape it oh baby
Please forgive me
When I think of you my thoughts are so x-rated oh baby

Baby I don't give a damn
I know that your man's nowhere in sight oh oh
And your eyes don't tell a lie
I know you wanna come with me tonight
And I'll see you right
But first you gotta

Push push back upon it (girl)
Make me believe you want it
Push push back upon it (girl)
Know I can't go on longing
Push push back upon it (girl)
Go ahead lay it on it (Don't stop)
Don't stop until the morning (girl)
Just keep pushing back on it

like i said previously
i went back to sleep and my eyes opened at 12
slack around and then got up and get ready to do some last minute shopping
heading to Batam tomorrow morning after work
so gonna shop there i guess
went to CT hall and Peninsula to get myself a small bag as previous ones are on bad condition
then got myself a T-shirt and U KNOW WHAT
i lost my cool SHADES ):
FUCK!
never mind though );STUSSY CAP NUM Slippers

then headed to NUM and bought the new Slippers that Is Current;y HOT
and got myself a so called stussy cap
and i headed home
spent around $100 today and i am so broke
anyone wanna help me?(;

just kidding
i got to go to sleep now or else i'll be damm shag
pray for my safety people (;

2009-04-15T08:30:00.002+08:00

LOVE STORY
We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...

i cant sleep ....
i was wide awake at 0639am in the morning
did my usual and had breakfast
and do my songs in my MP3 and uploading the latest songs
i am gonna get back to sleep soon
coz i am working the night shift and i need lots of rest
heading to Batam with my Colleagues tomorrow and simply cant wait
i pay hard all goes well
i am gonna shop till i drop baby
going for their makan2 and massage
my appetite is big nowadays
(;

and to NURSE =)
sorry for not replying
was busy and if i dont reply yours
i dont reply to others unless its important
and thanks for the care but BF can take good care of you
dont worry about me
i have learned to be independent
and i dont need girls to take good care for me
as for now

i learn to take things slowly
because only that God would show you the correct path
and i dont mean to hurt anybody but its just me
u can step on my G's if you want to
=)

had the VCd that i acted for crimewatch i must say
proud that i am being supported although i was the villain
the bad guy but thanks to the people that made my acting good
insyallah i am gonna venture more on it and
who knows
the next superstar is born
but i always remember what my momma says
Fame?They Dont Last
its Your Prayers and Believe in Allah is What U Preserve
and i am so gonna get back to sleep (;

2009-04-13T23:11:00.003+08:00

OH!
ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY TODAY LADY
I guess you know the Earth is gonna crash into the sun
But that's no reason why we shouldn't have a little fun
So if you think it's scary, if it's more than you can take
Just blow out the candles and have a piece of cake

Happy birthday
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday
Happy birthday to you
wow!

Happy birthday
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday
Happy birthday to you

i know the clock have yet to strike midnight so it would be 14april 2009
and my dear sister shinx is going a year older
21 or 22
your brother sucks at this though
anyways this post is done for in case i cant wish you at 12am
but whatever it is i just wanna say
Happy Birthday To You
best wishes from me to you
i'll pray for a memorable year and upcoming years ahead
hope u can achieved whatever you wish
and with perseverance comes the word 'contented'
stay true to abang Irwan and hope u guys last
and i know i owe u a pressie and i'll get for u soon
thanks for the advises and sweets talking u had for me & i have nothing to say but a THANK YOU
i hope you enjoyed yourself but dont party too hard okay sister!
see you (;
happy shikin (;?
hehe
and mine is in 31days

2009-04-13T22:04:00.004+08:00

HEARTLESS

In the night I hear him talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless (heartless)
How you be so heartless Oh
How could you be so heartless

How you be so cold
As the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talkin to me yo
You need to watch the way you talkin to me yo
I mean after all the things that we been thru
I mean after all the things we got into
Ayo I know it's some thangs that you ain't told me
Ayo I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon show me
So you walkin round like you don't know me
You gotta a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night I hear him talk
The coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless (heartless)
How you be so heartless? Oh
How could you be so heartlessI am homey now slacking around
guess gonna hit the sheets soon
i wanna sleep early though
still feeling shag and recovering from my flu
i am all alone now
mum's out dad's working
working to earned a good living for all of us
and i pray hard all would go well =)
i been reading my driving books
as my test is coming up soon
dont wanna kecoh2 as still early
but i pray hard that i pass and i dont wanna waste my money too
and went to grandma's house just now and me my grandma and my cousins
bought some food for them an then after an hour proceeded home
tired laa
and i cant wait for BATAM this coming thursday with my boys
my team i mean weewit
gonna have fun and hope it goes well though
and YEAH i took this ITE picture as it showcases my lil cousin hirzi doing the breakdance and he's the chosen one and i am so proud of u cousin
=)
i have set aside some money for BATAM
this month budget tight ):

and yeah oh my
my aunt gonna get married this coming may and i cant wait
i am gonna be the best of the best that day
gonna look great plus the cousins man
its gonna be helluva fun and the jokes we gonna make and stuffs
we gonna rock the wedding jyeah and its gonna be at a banglo chalet
weird but something new for a start
and its gonna be gerek
I am not free on 2nd & 3may people
seriously cant wait
and currently i am addicted to Jai Ho Feat Pussycat Dolls
and i have yet to achieve something in life

and there is something bothering me
it hurts though and i dont know if i am ready for love
things so complicated and i dont want to have any extra thught
i have a feeling the love is there and
all i could say is let naature takes its course
i be your shoulder to cry on

and for YOU that's attached
it hurts but i am still gonna be the same though
last long and be honest in love
only that could bring you to a joyful r/s
u cn say things to me at this time and u can change that in few minutes
no hard feelings

LOVE LOCKDOWN

2009-04-12T23:54:00.003+08:00

TAKIN BACK MY LOVE

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt
You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so,
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love

PISSED for NOTHING
something coincidental happened
both happened to asked me same questions
and its after 5mins each and hope the explanations is true
if not u wont see me anymore
i am so pissed and i can say things and i do it without thinking
but then i give it a chance
i am not ready to lost somebody
and i wont want to say goodbye and period

Work sucks yesterday and i was damm shag
and i slept for just 1hour that night
was waiting for time to pass quickly and it went well
feeling better now but not fully recovered
i slept like a log just now and woke up around 7 and do my stuffs
had light dinner and going to sleep after this
i am still tired nd tomoroow wake up when sun rises
got to do some errands and i think not going to shop this month
i need to save up and then going Batam this coming thursday
with my boys and out TL Jyeah
cant wait to shop and going for massages(the GOOD onr)
*WINK*
and then thats all for updates
and the pictures was random as i wanted to test my camera
dont mind me bustards =)

2009-04-09T16:31:00.004+08:00

LIGHTS CAMERA ACTION
You go hit the lights, I'll set up the camera
Let's get to the action
You go hit the lights, I'll set up the camera
Let's get to the action

I've been thinking about this for some time
I got a freaky temptation burnin' deep inside

You say the strip's already rolling
And the bedroom is the set
I hope you know your lines 'cause one take is all we get
SICK again and but its getting better though
i been downing plum juice barley and just eating cereals
cant eat much as no appetite
my 2nd off day is today & i force myself to go out and get
the FujiFilm Z20FD @ whopping $269/-
cheap or expensive dont come and scold me yaw
=)
i already surveyed and i guess this was the best one
wanted to get another one and its water proof and sleek but
BUDGET and RECESSION (;
and i force myself out from bed at 2pm and got myself ready
no one was at home though as all went out
Dad = work
Mum = went JB with grandma to pass out the wedding invitation cards to cousins
NOT me but my Last But Not Least Aunty =)
so i am left all alone at home
BORING
my lips are dried and i swear i need lots of drinks now
and after buying the camera
i went home straight as i am not that well
SORRY zee that i couldnt pop by to follow you
i was sick and dont wanna to get infections on you
im a RESPONSIBLE person(CEH)
And the reason i bought New camera is because my previous one 'LOSt'
and i definitely had to get a new one and GOING Batam next Week W/out Camera
better dont go right hahahahah
and thats all for today
enough said and Sweets
thanks for the concern+)
You REALLY WANT TO SEE ME DIE?
Chaba

Yesterday was my first off and i slept only 2hours and i am all awake
went to meet afdal at my work place and he appeal for his saman
then met the boys at Marina for a movie
COMING SOON
Irwan Rik Lin Foo and Myself
and there my working colleagues
too bad melvin can tag along as he is sick
get well soon brother
so we bought the tixs at 6plus and went makan at marina and this one familiar face turns me on
we kept lookin as if we know but to bad for me
i didnt approached you girl
damm coz just wanna ask that u look familiar but where
and back to the movie
damm scary as the first part
i really shouted because i was damm shocked sia
all of the people were laughing like hell and i swear its damm scary
anjat boyboy=)
i swear im not gonna watch for the second time
and after the movie went home and i fell asleep
thats all my fans =)

i need to rest for now

2009-04-07T16:37:00.004+08:00

SO SICK

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)Cream Of Chicken With Old Chang Kee Prawns

I had this just now to make me well

I am so sick right now
FLU hits me right on my nose
and i have been sneezing through the day
and i dont feel like working later on
body aches puffy eyes and all that comes together with flu
and later its gonna be major OPS and i got to do RTSM
the other 2 RTSM officers are down with MC as they are sick
left me alone and if i were to MC that's it Haikel
I went out to NTUC just now to bought some soups and orange juice and plum juice
adn i went to old change kee bought prawns
reached home and cook Soup and add prawns to it
first time doing it and succeeded and it was damm sedap
gonna start work in few hours and it isnt cool man
but work is work =)

well thanks for the concern Sweets
but at times u were a lil two faced
sorry but i got to be honest
look at your blog and your smses
u are 2 different persons
i am done with all these shits and i dont really bother
because i am tired
i got so many things to think about and to settle
but damm u are a nice person =)
no hard feelings
and u made me go sleep peacefully everytime

and NURSE
u are already attached to someone u just know
but no hard feelings though
i appreciate the little things u did
but i wont bother u that much though because u are simply his
and no i am no no in this third party thingy
maybe i know better or maybe not
but u are the sun that turns my day well

i am gonna rest and get ready
and lets pray it rains tonight

rain rain come again today and every time there is major ops
=)
God
You are the GREATEST

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2009-04-06T06:12:00.002+08:00

DAMAGED
Damaged, damaged
Damaged, damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is
Damaged, damaged
So Damaged
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
(Baby I gotta know what you are gonna do?

i off to work in few minutes and i guess i need to blog
before going off for work
and its MONDAY Morning
and it sucks to work during this freakin day
i hope it would be a relax one please?
as the team & i are going for a dinner later on (;
i wonder where

Yesterday had no plans initially
went out around 0830am to visit my baby brother number 2
he is doing well and all
kinda miss his antics and his shits =)
after that i proceeded home and just slacked around when Irwan Kening
called me and asked if i had plans i said NO NO NO
he said to me
I:Eh 5min Boy, mau pe tgk fast & Furious 4?
H:Serious pe kening?kau ni kaki bubble and aku anything but tgk pat vivo okay?aku book through phone
I:ape2 aslkan aku dapat tgk da bagus k g book sekarang
H:okay okay aku book aku bayar alright =)
and the phone went dead and i got ready slowly and decided to grandma's house for a while and my KECOH aunties were there and all were askin where im gonna walk down the aisle?
and i told them sometime in May but dont know which year yet
=p

So i met Irwan @ vivo and walked around first before cathing the movie at 1630hours
it was jam packed and the movie i shall give 6/10
the story line is kinda short but its the fast cars that makes us drool
and after the movie we went back home coz
Im tired =)

Things are getting way out of hand
i am really tired thats why i didnt text you much or called you
i was simply busy and touching my phone is like what i rarely do now
i rather be alone slacking then gettin myself ready for any R/S
i am simply not readyy because its hard for me not because of the PAST
but PRESENT as u know i enjoyed my single life as much i do love to have a partner and all but time would tell
and i tell myself to give you a chance and also to pray for guidance and road to a blossomed path and i hope u could understand me and we meet soon alright
=)

and for NURSE
Congrats for the speedy R/S
and i am happy for you although top of it is damaged
but i still be the same the one you enjoyed talking and the one you SQUIRM about and i just hope for the best and anything
u can holla me up @ my digits yaw (:

okay its gettin late and i better get going
(;

2009-04-05T07:31:00.002+08:00

TOP OF THE WORLD

Give me them bright lights, long nights
High rise, over time...
Give me the bright lights, long nights
Party til the sun is rising
High rise, over time
Working til the moon is shinning
Hot guys, fly girls... never thought I'd say it
I feel on top of the world
I feel on top of the world... hey}

i am all awake in the morning
even though i can finally close my eyes at 3am and woke up
at 0630hrs and went to shower and do my things
cleaning the room ironing my uniform and cleaning up mess
still feeling pain all over my body
and visiting danial is few hours time with mum
as dad is in K.L doing some business errands

to Nurse
we seriously need to talk and clear the dusty air
it seems u got me all wrong
u misunderstood my intentions
i dont have grudges against Mr F because that would be the last thing a guy should do
he did nothing wrong at all
and nothing is wrong with anyone here
i didnt reply your MSN simply because i was outside and leave my MSN on
and u didnt clear with me about this in HP u see
so i thought nothing of it till i saw your long stretch of MSN messages
i am sorry but tried to talk things out but u were too busy
so i just wait for today and hope it would be a beautiful sunday
and i tell u whats on my mind and i hope it can give u peace
and please dont spread the wrong message to him
dont make us have a fight or something yeah
its not nice girl =)
other that than u are a nice person
and i bukan giler eh nak cari GF (;

and to sweets
thanks for the text message u sent in early wee hours
haha
was touched but wished i can be the torchlight lor
and u owe me some things okay
my Birthday Coming tau
16/05/09 and hope it would be a memorable birthday for me and myself
turning 20 and hope maturity comes in me

i guess i better get ready now
i wouldnt want to be late for anything
=)

2009-04-05T02:26:00.003+08:00

THIS BEAT IS AUTOMATIC SUPERSONIC HYPNOTIC

FUNKY FRESH

I am so dead sleepy now
smoking cigga before hitting the sheets
life is as normal
went out for a while just now
friends texted me asking for meet up
but i guess i wanted to be left alone
do some deep thinking and all
in a couple hours of time
I'll be visiting my brother
miss him sey (;

went to Mustaffa Centre to get few things
Pay Day is coming soon and gonna use it for my Batam Trip
with my boys and colleagues
looking forward to it
and for some who tell me i am going to get down and dirty down there
i am so sorry
thats not the HAIKEL that you all know

=)

and we need to settle certain things zee
u got it all wrong babe
so yeah holla me up at my digits
(; peace one love
sleeping now

2009-04-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

POKERFACE

I won't tell you that I love you
Kiss or hug you
Cause I'm bluffin' with my muffin
I'm not lying I'm just stunnin' with my love-glue-gunning
I promise this, promise this
Check this hand cause I'm marvelous

am dead tired from morning shift and it totally sucks
and now i am going off in few minutes for work
and night shift totally sucks when they bring me back all those
stupid motherfucker drink drivers
and malam ni if they bawa balik and they rty to be funny
confirm kene fuck and colloeagues would start laughing
coz when i get angry, i get hungry =)
makan je banyak tapi badan tetap sexy (Irwan Kening Cakap)
Merepek Buto(;
sorry
and yeah Nurse
Go settle things first okay
i wanna take things slowly but i just hope luck's on me baby
and take care of yourself
and yeah i should call u Miss MMS =)

and thanks fo the ultimate concern u have given me kay
=)
u and i are best friend

and to my dearest HAFA
a man loves u for what u are
he doesnt have to lay hands on you
and its hurt to know from other then from your own
ANJELINA JOLIE'S Lips darling
u wont tell me coz u scared farhan is gonna get an earthquake
but just so u know
i care for but its time u get awake by all this bullshits
once a man hits u, he's gonna hit u big time
just take a look at your own idols
Rihanna & Chris Brown

2009-04-02T06:00:00.002+08:00

I'm Sorry Mama I Never Meant To Hurt You

My Version Of Peace

I am deeply sorry mama for my sudden rudeness
although u know its been long since we argue over the smallest little things
but i guess i was wrong yesterday and NO people
it wasn't an April fool joke
but whatever it is i miss u and i am sorry
take good care of yourself when in JB and u be back today
i am so overwhelm (;
Both Parents left for K.L & J.B respectively
dad in is K.L for some official reasons
Mum is so called expanding her songket business in J.B
We do have strong support from the locals though but just wanna try our luck (;

I be starting work in an hours time and i am so freaking shag
i fell asleep @ 2am after much tossing around
feeling lonely though
i still have puffy eyes now and tired
dont know if i am gonna survived the 12hour shift later on
Redbull? its time to don u down my throat =)

Sorry for not texting you
my mood has been irregular this few days
sometimes i just felt like putting my cell phone down and just slacking around
watch Slumdog Millionaire yesterday but half aje
another half maybe tonight?
tomorrow must wake early and stuffs ):
tommorow Night Shift ):
sucks right
and okay pops
i better get ready for work (;

and to JUJU aka Juliana
kerja kamu nak bully ajer
Bibir Jay Z but the Sexier Version okay(;

2009-04-01T14:08:00.003+08:00

You Got 12 Rounds To Win These Game =)

I am so damm tired now
slept at 5am as was watching two movies
that i randomly picked
Ninja Cheerleader(Boring)
and Marigold(Good)
and before that i was out with my boys

watching movie 12rounds
with colleagues
Irwan Lin Melvin Foo Rik & Myself
it was planned on out night shift though and its random
met them around 6 and i was late as usual
12 rounds was very action packed movie
its good and it shows a man's love towards his beau
John Cena did everything he could to save Molly his beau
and it was a great show for all of us
After the show we bump into Shahmee with a friend
just chill a while before we made a move to hit homey
and wish to say it was a great outing and hope we could do it again yeah

and as for u sweetie
i am sorry for the silent treatment
i just need my time alone but i appreciate your concern and care
thanks yeah and sweet blog u have

i was crossing over to aiyee's blog and she wrote about me enjoying my life
hehs

macam biasa je appriecate the littlest things in life yeah

see u soon beautiful (;

2009-03-29T22:11:00.011+08:00

This Is How I Rocked My Police/NS Life (;

My Life As A Policeman =)

okayy people
i am so random wanna talk about my life as a policeman
i wanna share with you guys how i felt and for those guys/girls who intend to joined SPF
i gonna give u bits about it and i hope u could pick up one or two from here
and a little bit about people that walked into my life

Firstly i received a letter on 10 October 07 from Government
saying i have been shortlisted to enter National Service & I got SPF
Singapore Police Force
i was excited and was kinda looking forward too
my parents were proud of me
and as days goes by and
11december i was enlisted and to endure 4months of training and all
i did not really like it and i played punk a lot till one day i wake myself up and tell
myself to back up and pull up my socks
and thats when i meet whom i called friends
that come and go and some stayed
Life In NS was fun
we endure everything together
had misunderstandings fights and shits together
i enjoyed every single of them but when all of us pass out
thats when sad moments drool us and made us a perfect person i guess
This Is Just Half Of The Team Babies (;

I was then posted to Traffic Police On 6 June 2008
thats where i really learn about
Life Teamwork Friendship Hardwork Problems Bonding
i got a team who at times can be pretty uncool and sometimes can rock my ass pretty good
Team Leader (;
i got my team leader who is understanding and never takes sideDeputy Team Leader In Blue
i got my deputy team leader who never fails to make jokes and taught me about life lessons
i got my regulars who told us whats right whats wrong and their funny antics
i got my other friends who either same batch or earlier who is "Gerek" and idiot at times
Filming =)

i was lonely back then
waned a GF but some told me not too and
i guess i got their meaning
life was much more easier and happier
i got to buy things on my own
made myself happy and contented
i date some but it seems i need to be on track back in the dating world
love games i must say babes
Life is full or possibilities and surprisesFood Outing

I enjoyed every moment till now minus the bad times
In Traffic Police
i got to meet different people of different lifestyles
and i could click with almost everyone
and my job scope gets me to meet different kind of people
and it feels good if u can make someone's day with a smile
In TP
i got to act in Crime Watch which is coming soon
I got to do things i love
i got a chance to Dance for my Dinner & Dance 09
i got support from my very own people who have faith in me
i do ahve flaws and i change to gain my colleagues trust and with patient
i do get what i want
There would be Food Outing
Late Night Chill and Durians
Soccer @ Cage and lots more
Everything is Fine
i am gonna finish in December and i wish it would never end(:
but i was thinking of signing on and go for courses that is relevant my job
and i just hope for guidance and love from everyone.

I know this post is random ut i wish to share with any wannabes
u got the right career and dont flunked yourself
i learned everytime i got scolded
and life is never easy
and i love my life now
pray for the best dudes

and to my bestfriends and all
u are never forgetten
u knw who u are

2009-03-28T22:50:00.006+08:00

EARTH HOUR

As u all know today is where we celebrate earth hour
those environmentalist would be squirming and some would be smiling
but for some humans its nightmare
but then it wasnt made compulsory
but then again to save our
EARTH
(:

Bills Bills Bills

I received my bills from my email just now and i got the shocked of my life
i have to pay a little extra this time around
went to the calculations and all and did a lil bit of administrative work for myself
setting out dates which i am totally our from town and totally busy
Aprils Gonna be a month of busy life for me
i got big wish to be true
i got my life to be put on the correct track with guidance
and to have fun and enjoy life while i am still young
i am turning 20 in 2months (random bodoh)
and then heading to Batam with colleagues next month
i bet its gonna be hell of a lifetime
and as u all can zoom
my SMS got up to 2000plus (;
Thank You SINGTEL(;

& as for my life
everything seems smooth and steady
i miss my brothers and those i have yet to catch up with
but deep inside all of you are remembered
i dont contact doesnt mean i dont care (;

and as for u my little cupcake
sorry if im being unfair towards you
i have been really tired and busy now
and by the time i wanna contact you
u be either sleeping or tired
lets take a chilly road
which means take it slow really
which u and i are doing it
but deep inside i do care okay
(;

I have yet to watch coming soon
but Confessions Of Shopaholic was super duper fine
* Dont Answer The Call Its Derrick Smith"
=P

2009-03-28T04:04:00.002+08:00

Nobody-

i cannot sleep as i kept waking up
thanks to growling stomach
i had fun going out with u although its short while
nice knowing u but i hope u can
take a chill pill

Miracle Indeed Kuasa Allah S.W.T

2009-03-26T17:19:00.003+08:00

Love Sex Magic

Everything ain't what it seems
I wave my hands and I got you
And ya feel so fly, assistantin' me
But now is my turn to watch you
I ain't gonna stop you
If ya wanna grab my neck, talk sexy to me like that
Just do what I taught you, girl when I give you my heat
And I need you to push it right back

i am starting to feel the way i feel
u get what i mean
the love sparks tingling my whole body
it has its ups and downs
and i dont denied those shivering encounters
but love history taught me one thing
take the risk and learn everything u fall
and to stand up again without feeling hurt but smile
although i dont pray that much
the one that mould us into humans have given me lots of guidance without me knowing
but putting in my mind hear and soul
BUT
i have certain feeling its gonna work well
and i hope it does
because i am sick of being played around
but i know u are a sincere person
to all my ex loves out there
whom i used to promise and to be promised at
forgive me and i hope u all can give me your blessings
ONE did and i am thankful to that
& i hope we can work together to make it happened
an di hope i dont change minds like a girl change her clothes
and i hope i can be a blissful beau to you
i hope as u read this u smile with a feeling of content
rmb this blog is where i tell me feelings all out (;

i am going to work in few minutes
really hope it rains tonight
rain rain come again today (;
its love lockdown with memories
and check your email yeah beau

2009-03-25T22:10:00.002+08:00

Takin' Back My Love

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt
You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so,
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love..

well things have been going on well for me now
alhamdulilah
but work just sucks today
i am so busy till sweety text me and i couldn't reply
so sorry yeah work held me up so tightly
so many documents papers i had to do alone
thanks eh other than that
time flies quickly then i thought

i went home str8 and reached home and bath and MSN with Her
i just hope we could be true
i may say empty promises to others but certainly not u
and i hope we can make it true
to my fans,if hate me for this once
give me your blessing instead of cursing up there and talking behind
my sexy back
and u know we can take it slow sexy
and this is for u
sweetest drug (;

2009-03-24T21:56:00.008+08:00

Race To Witch Mountain

I slept at 5am chatting with this sweet friend of mine
and woke up around 10am just to nadiah if she has the permission from momma
if she can go and i fell asleep while waiting for her text and 11am she text me saying she could go
i smile and went to sleep back again and woke up around 1 and got ready slowly
we planned to watch the movie
RACE TO WITCH MOUNTAIN
and show was at 1645 hrs and it better
so i slacked around smoke my shit out and stuffs
then got ready and go to grandma's house to have lunch and nadiah texted me saying hariz
my other lil cuzzin wants to joined and i said alright
planned to have all the cuzzins but all *step busy* (;
so we met around 4 and rushed there taking a cab eh
(;

Bought our tickets and then buy out tidbits and then asked
the two of them to wait as i go smoke smoke
then went to watch it and i tell you it was super duper good
out of 10,i give it a 7
not wasting your money folks
and after that movie went to chill and TCC
bought myself Passion Drink & Nadiah bought Hot Chocolate
and Hariez shared with us and after that we left for home

and let pictures do the chacha
(;

& now i am at home feeling tired and worn out
iron my uniform as i am working morning shift tomorrow
sucks right
and now waiting for that someone to online (;

To This Special Someone
i am not hoping all out
but i have a certain aura we can make it through
and i pray hard for guidance and i hope we can be true to each other
coz i am done with love but i hope u planned the best for us
Insyallah
Slowpoke (;

Its me against the world

2009-03-24T01:13:00.002+08:00

Its Me Against The World

I have been thinking deep thoughts about myself
i been hurt by word 'LOVE' too much
till i lose control of myself
i didn't love myself much but i love other people more
that's what people been telling me
i am angry at myself for failing but a wise friend told me
i was borned to be strong
i can encouraged people to live life with love
to move on and not to be brutally hurt
but i myself failed at that and WHY?
I have wonderful friends now and a better life
it would be better to come soon and i really hope it will

I failed in LOVE again and again
where did i go wrong and which extra path i took that turns me back to
where i belong
i was in the dark path but i found light again
i made friends older than me to show me around
the paths i have yet to take and all
i know i wont let anyone down
but this is the only place for and nothing could take that away from me
i have nothing now
and a Sister Figure tell me that now all girls want guys with looks money transport
whats happening with the world of sins
I have wonderful parents and family
and supported me in everything although i have flaws
that no one knows and i know i can get out of this ALONE

I wanna thank ones that came to me just to tell me off nicely
MSN.CALLS.MEETUPS.MSGS.
i truly appriecate every single cents of advice and i used it as it came by
some people moved me with their words and character
some motivate me to be a better firm guy

I Thank You All
and i thank to those who stick by me
and i promise i rose up high but still be humble
(;

Last but Not Least
i have to learnt to love myself
Haikel Is My Name & I am Proud Of It
(:
SHIKIN
Thanks YEAH ((:

When The World Has Given Up

2009-03-23T21:21:00.003+08:00

alright
this blog no updates sia.
been busy with work
met up with isha just now t have dinner @ swensens and pass her present
amek kau
i dont owe u anything now okay =)
thanks for the short meetup btw

i just got home minutes ago and today is my first off
freakin tired eh people
the i got home still dont want to sleep
and then i checked shikin's blog
and i was super duper surprise by the entry
thank u love
u simply appriecate me or what
thanks eh =)

please to anyone out there
dont have grudges against me
u know it all im much a better person
so PEACE

For My Understanding & Knowledge

2009-03-22T11:18:00.002+08:00

step1 Remember we are all different. It’s easy to forget that not everyone thinks and functions the same. Don’t expect everyone to react to situations in the same way. For example, where one person may laugh off an insult another may be hurt for days. If we keep in mind that we all may react differently to different situations, we may be better equipped to be more considerate of people's feelings.

Step2

Don’t jump to conclusions. Stop and consider reasons why someone may be behaving a certain way. If someone doesn’t return your friendly hello and smile in the grocery store, it’s easy to immediately think, ‘what a @*#%’. However, what could be perceived as rude could actually be the result of anxiety, depression, or just a bad day.

Step 3 .Empathize. Try to relate to others. For example, most of us have been in a hurry before and done something on the road that probably irritated another driver. However, we seem to forget that when another driver does the same to us. Using empathy, we can relate back to our own behavior and experiences and use it to try to understand rather than become angry with others.

Step4

Demonstrate understanding. Although we do not have to like or agree with what some people may do, we can attempt to understand why they do what they do. Lets say someone demonstrates behavior that would imply that he or she really is not a very nice person. There are probably reasons that this person behaves that way. For a more extreme example, again and again studies show that men who were abused as children are more likely to become abusers themselves. This is not ‘making excuses’ for someone’s behavior; it is simply trying to understand it.

Step5

Remember this simple rule of human behavior; People do the best they can at that moment in time. This one can be difficult to understand in the context that it is used but once it clicks, it makes perfect sense. For example, if someone is an alcoholic and they lose their job as a result of it, they are doing the best they can at that moment in time. If they could have done better they would have.

Step6

Finally, show compassion. If someone appears to be rude and unkind maybe they have had a difficult life, maybe they are or have been abused, or maybe they just got a very unwanted diagnosis. That’s the thing, we don’t know. Someone who doesn’t act very nice probably doesn’t feel very good inside either. Be compassionate. Be friendly anyway, and be thankful that you don’t feel they way that they appear to feel on the inside.

Rumah Irwan Ade Fun Fair Semalam Pergi IT Fair =)

2009-03-16T14:39:00.003+08:00

i am home slacking for good
suppose to have driving in the morning but instructor cancel due to last minute cock up
change to 230pm but my head and body so lazy and furthermore the raining is making me more lazy to go for practical and TP is coming soon sehh
change to Wednesday and early morning again
pheww
lucky have set aside some money for my driving

we cuzzins and parents gonna have some gathering
on Thursday and it falls on my second off day and i am pretty cool with it
some say go sentosa or east coast
but if rainin we go watch movie or slack at aunty mimi's house
so i am gonna plan later
and yeah biler part ni semua tolak aku =)
plan to meet rush but still not feeling well
get well soon sweetie
EAT medicine & DRINK Plum Juice
for goodness sake yeah (;
and choose the right dresses
=)

Yesterday went to IT Fair @ Suntec after 7pm
went alone because wanna get the deals and dont wanna waste time
so went around & no pretty babes that much
was looking for a photo printer the smaller version but couldnt find
wanted to buy camera but within budget
so went around and saw this
EPSON STYLUS TX100 @ whopping $98
usual price was $148 and i think about it and bought it
got into lucky draw,won a USB traveller but it was out of stock so i
MAcdonalds Voucher and $20 Outback Steak House voucher
=)
i went home after that with the printer and took MRT
because save money & also taxi was full
grr
reach home and fix the things and ordered macdonalds using the voucher
and chatted with Bestfriend and also Rush
then after that i think i went to dream land
and i hoping for the best

to shikin TP
just pray the best for him instead of saying bad things
pray that he gets the path to the correct way
i have friends who were like him but immediately change
so keep our fingers crossed
he may do shits to us but still
he did walk into our pathway
=)

AND 1 more thing
LINDAA the girl whom i considered my sister my smiles and stuffs
have finally passed and got herself a driving license
yesterday met up with her and she tumpang me and she's scary at times
but at the back of it
u are doing well and i love u so much much much
takmo amek hati dgn ____
he memang gitu
smile okay((;

& its love lockdown

I-AM-MR-NEVER-SERIOUS GUY =)

2009-03-14T13:02:00.005+08:00

SHE'S BACK

My Aunt's back from her work in London
and Nadiah,no more freedom
but u have been a good and loyal daughter
taking care of the house and your siblings
i am proud of you okay
so we went to pick her up on 12 March
Uncle Noor picked me up then we proceeded to airport and reach around 1745
aunt's coming out at 1830 and so Hirzi Nadiah and I went to ATM,withdraw some money and paid bills and then bought few things @ Popeye =)
then around 15mins later Aunty Mimi reached with her daughter and son
We waited and she finally arrived and before that i was craving for Swensen's and like telling Nadiah and after Aunt went out with a smile on her face,she said to us
Come let's go Swensen and i was grinnin with a big smile
and to cut short we rreached there and ordered our food
i ate Pesto Salmon with Salads and finished it off with coke
and then i think after that we went home
THANKS!

The Feeling Is Uncertain

2009-03-11T14:27:00.002+08:00

night shift totally sucks from now on =)
haikel do this do that
lagi ape nak suruh aku buat
mentah2 aku nye org okay go
whatever it is i just have to work my ass off
thank god this month's salary enough for my bills and expenses
so no worries for noe

anyways
i dont wish to add more problems to you or your friends
so i decided to keep quiet and if its your friend that just tag my blog
oh please stop coz i guess we have nothing against each other so i hope it stops yeah
and honestly u are hot =)
tc and see u around soon

Just When I Thought You Were Nice

2009-03-09T05:18:00.003+08:00

Early morning make me lose my freaking mood
i entered into someone's blog and just say hello and how you?
it was just a random hello and nonetheless
its how i break the ice
then the owner reply nak taknak
and then her friend like get into the story
dont wish to elaborate because lotsa people narrow minded
and furthermore i dont wish to create any arguments
i am better life now
no hard feelings eh H n N
talking about KARMA
i told u not to do this to him
and u did and see now what happens
=)

Kpak Bing Bing

2009-03-08T21:48:00.003+08:00

wakey wakey @ 10am
got ready and went to dad's shop and slack till 2pm
he picked me up with adil and we went to cousins wedding @ Tampines
i was super hungry and when i reach there,i saw my world
my cousins to my aunties to people i have never met for a long time
miss you people
as per normal being lively and such
chatted with aunty nah and aunty mimi
and played with aunty nah's little daughter who i called rihanna
u should know why later
then as per normal kept disturbing people and such
then around 4 went home and i was super shag

all i hope was a new life with little problems (;okayy people
this is my gorgeous aunt i=with her rihanna
macam kan
and she is super cute but super sombong
AND SHE IS VERY ADORABLE
okay thats it
i have yet to post more pics from To D&D
and i'll do it asap
tommorow sucks because i am working morning
U spin me right round

The Bond We Had

2009-03-08T01:25:00.006+08:00

aku mentel

today i woke up around 12 pm and got ready to meet isha and farishah to go plaza sing and watch danceworks 09 and to support Flair Nation
met farishah around 0345 and proceeded there and isha was already there
had fun met up with my loved ones that i have never seen for such a long time
then bump into kak lydia and lookin pretty as always
the Flair Nation got into finals
and it was nice of marsh to say hi to me from far although i cnt recognized her that much though
and then around 7pm farishah and i left for home as we were tired
reached home and slag for a while then decided to go my cousin's wedding @ Tampines with family and Congrats eh Azhar
Jaga Wife Betul Betul Okay(;
i am getting married soon but dont know what year
hahah wtf and then took pictures with the witches
=)this is nadiah
1st in the family
a witch but very nice witchthis is natasha
the second wish
no comments (;

and i am damm shag and hitting the sheets soon
=)
and shikin
Photos Photos Photos Please

Just Dance We Be Okay

2009-03-08T00:41:00.005+08:00

I am back Blogging
so i guess the picture above tells all about my MIA
yesterday 6th Of March was Traffic Police Dinner & Dance Held @ Pan Pacific
and it was super duper fun and i enjoyed totally
and honestly after a year plus of not getting myself in dance
i just had to did it again not just myself
but with my lovely babies
Isha Farisha Hawa Ebal Vimal
and this people make it happened
and i am so proud of them because normally D&D is very hard to get crowd because they at times are gloomy people or not very open people
police somemore =)
i approached the management about this and they agreed of giving me a chance
and honestly i was very nervous that point of time
butterflies all over my stomach bit
with the support of my won lovebugs and colleagues
i made a promise to myself that i am gonna do well and i did it
too bad my brother Nur didnt came on time
shit You man =)
V did the opening by doing drag while the girls do buttons
and it was very well done and we got the crowd there
and i would like to thank everyone that came down to support and make me happy
after the performance we received loud cheers and claps
and i was so shocked when the MC started telling them(TP) that i am one of their own and all of them clap and shouted for me and i didnt expect that though and all i can say is i am very happy

Pre-Event @ 0630-0730
there were glamour studio and fun buttons to airbrush tattoo and stuffs
i was getting ready in the hotel room with the rest and when i was ready
i went down with them and i saw Roszliana Syed Ismail and some
Syed was like asking me faster take photos with them while Ros joined in and took photos with me and followed by some people who like say which i cant remember
A: Hey Kel,Kau Joget Pe Nanty?Rabak Eh Tak Bilang?
KEL:HAHAH! surprise pe mangkuk(:
A:G Mati Uh! Chicks Kau Baik Pe (Referring To Hawa Farishah Isha)
KEL:Dont Say, I Know Already Tapi Isha Ade BF,Hawa Single Farishah Aku Nak
A:Babi Uh Kau, =)
and i left the place as i was super nervous
@ 0730pm Tony Approached me and told me to get my ass ready as the show is about to start
and i nodded anxiously and after the awards show we dance our heart out and
to my lovebugs thank u for making it happen and i love you guys
i am gonna miss the practices we had and i am definitely not gonna stop contacting u guys
with love haikel((:
and please eh monday practice 5pm @ Isha's Dome(WINK)

and after that i went makan2 and then picture time and i expalin briefly alright
to Nur sorry eh tak Battle
Da relek uh brother (;

This Is Farishah
the one that i reallylove like hell
the one that always rude to me but never fails to make me smile (;
i wanna thank you for loving me as a brother and i hope if time permits and Allah Izinkan
i'll be with you and always remember i always love and adore you for what u are
and dont let guys take advantage of you and sorry for my wrong doings
(:
This is Isha
The one that i can talk to and relate myself
the one one defends me even if i am wrong and corrects me after that
She is my Inspiration my Critic my Listening Ear my Eye Candy
She never fails to put a smile on her face and she is always there to tell me advices and whatever
same goes for me
thank you for sacrificing yourself and your needs for me
thank you for making it happened
i owe u a birthday gift girl
and please
Perangai takmo MAT REP =)
last long with Hardy and stay gorgeous

Sumpah Tk Perlu and it was in the toilet and takmo fikir lain eh

and yeah this is The 3 NSMen that can make it =)
Nur.Hashir.Haikel
all looking good and fab

Berdegup Jantungku Mendengar Nama Mu

2009-03-04T22:53:00.002+08:00

First and foremost
Thanks to Nadiah my little cuzzie witch for helping changing my blogskin
as i cant be be bothered to do myself
LOL
thanks again sweetie
owe u alot yea(;

nothing much to update
jsut tired and going to sleepy mode
zzzz
(;

and i just cant pull myself away

2009-03-03T01:24:00.003+08:00

*laughs*
been very busy this few days with work and practical
looking forward to it
and cant wait although nervous
my blog is currently going some plastic surgery
it be back to normal asap
met up with ismail just now for lunch and he bring me out to sent his camera back
he is a big bro to me never fails to disturbb me 24/7 and he sucks at times
=)
has an irritating gf too (;

anyway
had a tiff with this guy call zee
haha
gotta be honest
he suck la people
People call him A.W.I.E
Always World In Everything
=)
nice name given by E
lotsa people cant stand u anymore
kan tadi perangai mat rep da keluar
haha
all the dance crews up there
better be careful dangerous eh budak ni
and i lazy 2 update about that bustard
pity his 'Girlfriend"
and his friends too(;

and anyways i got to sleep early
tommorow i have meeting @ 10am
uh fuck9:

2009-03-01T01:51:00.000+08:00

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

I thought that I should let you know That my heart is Damaged, damaged

2009-02-26T01:59:00.002+08:00

Damaged

alright i am gonna blog about my daily rambles
today was supposed to work morning shift but i was too sick and went to take MC
and the doctor was really good,he gave me a stronger antibiotics for my pain
and its getting better =)
had my practical just now and almost all are done
TP coming up in April and i gotta get that license and i pay hard i will get
Traffic Police Dinner & Dance is coming up and i already plan out what i wanna wear on that day
and i hope i can get
Best Dress for that night
my clan are going and i am sure they all are gonna dress to impress
i swear i need a new camera

Happy 29th Birthday To Ismail Saheeb
the one that never fails to advised me and as always irritates me
best wishes and hope your path is full of roses and angels
=)

and my heart So Damaged
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it
i dont really know what is going on and
u definitely didnt care how much i felt about you
or maybe u just felt in love with guys who are better off then me
cant denied that but so much i have done and this is what i get in return
u said i change but it was u that got the ball rolling
i am very super upset by you and u didnt even have the initiative to really pull me one side and talk to me but its okay been hurt lots of time
and i guess there is nothing i can do for it
thank for those things you have dine for me=)

US against the world

2009-02-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you, baby
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war
I'll be fighting with you, baby
Cause I know if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground
If the boat is sinking, I know you won't let me drown

I gotta update what;s going on lately in my cycle of life
my family jewel is getting better coz antibiotics are doing wonders
suppposed to be on MC yesterday but came back to work
today first off but damm have to go for Team Retreat @ Pasir Ris Park
and then followed by lunch @ Sakura and barbeque @ Pasir Ris park

So here it goes
9am,Assemble @ Park waiting for the HOT and the rest to come
ordered $2 meal for the 20 of us and HOT came later and we did our presentation and those that organised was definitely a big time cock up
make my Team angry for nothing
12p,,went to have lunch @ Sakura and it was damm super yummy dummy delicious
ate alot and stomach last warning eh
then we supposed to Have BBQ @ 6pm and we had four hours from 2pm-6pm with nothing to do
we walk around when suddenly i sounded my TL to go for massage and half agreed and we went for it
and it was super good eh (;
then to cut short we had BBQ from 6pm onwards and then around an hour later or so i left because i was super shag and here i am @ home feeling the blankets and the serenity of my lovely home

to someone i love i dont know what going on here everything i do is sincere and i don really expect anything not even a thank you or appreciation i dont need all that but my only wish is for you to realize and give me a chance know me from the inside and not from the outside it clears my heart knowing u telling me things but it hurts me knowing lots of guy aftering you and i stand no chance i wish to back away fromu and maybe u realize and u dont know what i am going through the pain the sacrification the love and the hard work maybe you are too young too realiz but i back away from you now and i be there if u need me F =) and just you know i love you (;

YOU are such a pain in the ass

2009-02-22T17:57:00.002+08:00

alright
i have not been updating because i am damm tired
I am down with Urinary Tract Infection again
and its worst because honestly I didn't Had Sex For A Year
that makes me not a virgin alright
if i am scared i wouldn't blog about it
but before some narrow minded people start tagging
i started having these a year ago i guess when i had .... with someone
then it cured and it came back again
it happened that one thing i been downing redbull for the past 3days and i like to hold till i cant help it then i go urine and on friday,the pain came and i went to doctor yesterday and he told me i have UTI which means Urinary Tract Infection and pescribe me some anti-biotics for me and i ahve to see an urologist for check up but i am noot scared because i have not done anything dirty
but what the doctor say its true,i cant hold my urine and i have to drink lots of water though

and i started dinking plain water and ate vitamins
its time i watch out for my own bloody health

and yeah i call all those sweet girls "love"
its just how i spit it out
and i am sorry if it hurts anyone
and if there is a need to talk 2 me,by all means..=)

so yeah i cant wiat for my Traffic Police Dinner & Dance =)

fcuk to all haterz

2009-02-15T16:05:00.001+08:00

U KNOW WHAT
I SO DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT PEOPLE WHO CANT STOP TALKING ABOUT ME
SERIOUSLY

Stand Under My Umbrella

2009-02-14T23:45:00.003+08:00

first and foremost
happy valentine to all who celebrated it
and including those 'murtads' who celebrated too =)
hope all of you are doing good
=)

i am at work now
doing night shift and using mobile broadband
chatting with friends
and getting my work done
life so far so good
been busy preparing for the "show" which gonnna debut soon
and i am so worried as left with 30% and i gonna make sure it works
i just hope everyone is putting effort
and certainly pray there would be no penyakit hati

just now went out in the afternoon with isha and adi
and bought few stuffs
had lunch @ long john and no no v day for me
working night shift some more

i wish to highlight something to all lovely girls out there
if u have an abusive boyfriend
please do not hesitate to contact the police
dont let my species hurt you till u drop
because it wont bring you any good
take example for Rihanna's and Chris Brown Affair
she is badly beaten up and furthermore she is a artist with bright future
look what CB has done to her and now all his acts are being publicized
so girls wake up your damm mind and do something about your man
not just violence but also any other stuffs
and there were reports it was done way before this year
even last year friends revealed she had bruises
girls think yeah

and thats it fuggers
and yeah
K.A.R.M.A is really sweet
and i now see the world better

(;

i dont want us to be enemy this love is taking all our energy

2009-02-12T23:59:00.001+08:00

Shag Shag Shag
that's what i am feeling right now
seriously cant help it
all those long hours of tearing my muscles and what's not
is killing me but is putting me on a good cause
i'll update soon and take care'to the the 'berisi'
ni i update eh already(;

You Change My Whole Life

2009-02-08T13:47:00.003+08:00

I would always remember the cheerful bubbly personality you have
i would keep praying for you and you be fine out there
when i was told you look beautiful and calm when you are gone
i know u be happy up there
i swear i wanted to cry but it keeps holding me back
you planned to meet up but that never came
i am gonna miss you and same goes to our friends
but what all of us can do is pray for you and we know
Allah loves u more
you were my first secondary school love and i can never forget that
you touch our lives thats why you can see all of us visited you
we shall always love you
and i am proud your mum and dad is very strong
Al-Fatehah
we have to accept the fact she is gone to another place that is good for her
rather than this world that is full of sins

I had my practical from 12pm-8pm
and it so tiring after doing all the routines
but i am pretty sure we all gonna give you all out
other than that i am too shag already

to whom it may concern
you change my whole life
but it seems you care too little
or u are out there enjoying
but all i can do is just keep advicing you and all
i cant do much
i am not boyfriend to you
all i can do is pray things shall work out
pretty peace (;

You be in my memories Yasmeen

You Had My Heart & Would Never Be Worlds Apart.

2009-02-07T01:01:00.003+08:00

Yasmeen Binte Shamsudin
11/05/1989-06/02/2009

You would always be remembered and love by all of us
rest in peace and i would always love you
i regret we never get to meet up although we promised each other that
Semoga Roh dicucuri rahmat dan semoga yasmeen diletakkan di smaping orang2 yang beriman
u have my prayers yasmeen
i love you

baby can u see im calling a girl like shuld wear a warning its dangerous im lovin it

2009-02-04T12:24:00.002+08:00

sorry for the dusty cobwebs been busy with 2 praticals
car and stuffs
work has been okay life is much more great
alhamdulilah
took my IPPT just now and i aimed for Gold but too bad too sad i got only silver
i flopped in my 2.4Km and thanks to that all i got was disappointment and silver
but i thought of taking another time and see how it goes
and hopefully i can achieve gold this time
and im dead beat right now

having photoshoot later with them
and i hope its gonna be fun and all
i think thats all for now

the feeling of uncertain is killing me

2009-01-31T14:10:00.003+08:00

my lips are sealed

(:

sometimes certain things are just meant to be kept secret
i know it paints the bad side of me but
what can i do to make both parties happy?
where i myself a re stuck in between?
like i said im gonna be honest with certain people here and
the person starts with J.
you know i like you and all but things are not going the way we or I wanted
well i respected your decisions though and it shall stick that way love
but whatever it is it was never a mistake (;
i am sorry for my side

too bad for me
i just cant find the right companion (;

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word But A Man Gotta Do What A Man Gotta Do

2009-01-29T18:36:00.003+08:00

Honestly
i am tired of all this shit and stuffs
and i myself shall put a stop to it
because i believe in forgiving and forgets
people may hate me for my decisions
but at the end of the day
would you stick by me?NO
i was given a very good wake up call by Shinx
my everyday bliss i must say
she made me see what is bad and what is good
i realise that alot and i should have respected your views and Concern Fazilah
i guess u are reading this now
i am deeply sorry for causing you to have trauma by my stupid actions
i am so sorry for causing all the troubles
and if u have done something to hurt me too
i hope you can put a stop to it so we dont have anymore conflicts
Shinx told me to be direct in whatever i blog and i guess i could follow her footsteps
but there would be flaws and all but what i have to blog is all here
this is my life and this is where i communicate if there is something i am not happy about
i know your bf doesnt want us to prolong this and he have reasons for that
and i respect whatever decisions that comes along and if i am wrong
do tell me in a nice way mine you people im 1989 and there is alot i have yet to see about the world
i am suppose to get ready for work now but here i am blogging because i wish to end this mess
for my pass i am sorry for everything and i wish you can give me a call so we can end it peacefully
i receive alot advises and please give me time to change
i have enough shits already and to shinx
thanks alot for everything and i love you for that ad i love you for standing up for me
and one thing i can say people who are so close to me dont even do this for me
(;.

What Does 16may Tells You

2009-01-26T22:39:00.003+08:00

You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dream comes true. Your Love, You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at fist sight is not your style.

the paragraph above said about me on my birthday which i found it true at certain parts
but perfectionist is never me
and it says it all i rock in making friendship and stuffs
and i hope for great birthday this year

work was alright
and stuffs and we played boggle again and i am always coming out with stupid words and stuffs
but i am just happy for all that happened
and i wish the best in everything that happen has a reason for it

to the little angel out there
be strong girl
its just another catastrophe
u have to learn the hard way at times
just so u know i am here (;
as always

And I just can't pull myself away Under her spell I can't break

2009-01-22T10:45:00.004+08:00

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.

We were both young when I first saw you.

i just came back from work and i am still wide awake here
just had ayam penyet for breakfast and Geylang and it was super delicious ((:
Thumbs Up
work was fine and everything went out well
had a little meeting about our retreat next month as
each of us get $100/- and all of us plan of hitting Kuala Lumpur
2days 1night as our off day is only 2 days
after what adam has planned
i am pretty sure we gonna have a helluva good rockin' time
bu too bad adam cannot go because wifey pregnant
then with kak ju and abg shariff going
we might be saving some money ya know =P
cheeky but smart
be going 15-16Feb and spent some time there shopping and all

anyway to this 25year old woman(who has not learnt to grow up)
stop bothering my friends life
they are happy with what they have and they dont need you to be a n extra or a calefare
perhaps u wanna try for mediacorp as they need extras too
move on fucking bitch
stop being a nuisance to the family

i am sorry for bothering you although i meant it well
but u still never learn the meaning of nice and all
u still put me in bad shape and this is what i get in return
its really okay because i have nothing to say
i am not going to put any words of fire so that i wont create misunderstandings
so be gone (;

other then that
everything is going fine
thanks to Aishah for the soulful advices and everything
i owe one though (;

Tip top, drip drop, bottles pop, Lips lock, hips rock, don't stop

2009-01-15T21:18:00.003+08:00

Hello Everyone Thursday 15/01/09

i woke up around 8 am
shower and get ready for my practical and all
starts @ 1020 am and it went smoothly
just need to control my turning and all
then met the clan and slack around and reached home around 8pm
MSNed and stuffs and time to hit the sheets as tomorrow starts the 12hour morning shift
fuck la (;Wednesday 14/01/09

i hope all out there is doing fine
i am here to update about yesterday's event and today too
it was kinda of a blast actually
In the morning i had my e-trial followed by FTT and Alhamdulilah
i have passed and My TP is on the 28-04-09 and that's another big obstacle for me
and i hope can cross it
insyallah and pray for me yeah (;
Yesterday met Lindaa @ City Hall then we went to makan at this nice place at downtown east and bump into abg shariff and family
anjat boi2 noh =)
had this chicken salad and a meal and thumbs up
then linda talked like there is no tomorrow but whatever it is
i am here always yeah
MAYBANK here i come =)
then sent here home by cab and took her iPod and went off

I just cant stop (;

2009-01-14T14:33:00.002+08:00

i am so shag lor
the 12hour shift is killing me
please please go back to 8hours normal shift although its 1 tour
such as 2 mornings 2 afternoons 2 nights
its better that way although
12hour shift is 2 days work 2 days off
Traffic Police went on trial for a month since yesterday but
i dont really favour that much seriously
now they wants to extend it to 3months
what my fuckin fuck
then the planner also dont know what he doing
thinking of himself i guess
but no worries and no hard feelings
but i prefer the normal shift and end of the day u still go home what
it was okay for me actually but when they are extending it and its affecting the dates i am doing my thing and its very troublesome ==
anyways had pizza for dinner yesterday with the team
and had macdonalds later on
and before that Hafawatie happen to be working so i call her extension and this is the most stupid pick up line from her
"hi. welcome to make delivery. hafa speaking. am i speaking to mr haikel?"
i was laughing because she never talk to me very formal and suddenly talk like that
macam merepek kan kau (;

my stomach not feeling well thats why hungry =)
so everything so far so good but i wanna shaare a quote or sentence as i got it from a wise person's blog
here it goes
Although this is a tough time, I am a survivor, I am strong, I will get through this, I will get past this situation in my life."

this makes me a stronger person and i am living by that fact and what i know is
i am back to dating game finally
so chickies get closer =)
but i wanna make it right this time
and i just cant pull myself another heart ache
and i miss my bestfriend
i am so tired
rest time

i want her to know i love her for who she has always be

2009-01-12T17:01:00.002+08:00

i always thought there is never a second chance in love for me
but i was wrong
chances keep coming to me asking me to fell in love
but simply i cant do it because i guess my love for the other one stays strong
but that doesn't mean imma heart breaker chain breaker
nope that is absolutely not HAIKEL (:
simply i dont like doing others
i just felt like blogging about love now
u know something readers
i used to be in love and it was about a year ago and till now
i have lost touch in love and dont know where to start
simply i mix with people who care about love and only care about their well being and just having fun but deep inside me i crave for that someone back
but lemme get this straight
i have never had bad intentions or whatsoever
i dont believe in hate taggs and stuffs
because i dont wanna get or feel
KARMA
i hate to take the risk and thats why people took my life away
but slowly i regained my confidence
eversince i step in to walk way of National Service
I tasted hard times and good times
Ever since i step into Traffic Police
i learn the meaning of teamwork and love
i learn lots of things
from soccer to bowling to other stuffs
i find myself ahead of the future
what i mean is
i find myself useful to the world
i have dreams and i have means of achieving it
i wish to share with you some of my unforgettable experiences
i started venturing slowly in acting and it was a small success for me
and i wish to continue it as part of my hubby
My mum used to tell me Fame doesnt last
and its true that people can forget you
but with the substance u have people shall remember you for what u are and so on
i chose to go through bad times and good times
thats when i learn
and i wish to say that i am much more better person now
i dont really like the idea of backstabbing and so forth
i chose to keep quiet and all and just take things slowly
i can see a light of life shining me
its Allah that give me his blessings and also patience
as i was saying about love
if u love that someone set it free
but to let it free and be taken away?
is that what you call undying love?
thats a question we all ask
i wish to state the fact that i still love you and i always yearn for that lovely voice of yours
but i can see it would never happened but deep down i yearn for your undying love
and to response to this guy dont you worry
i dont tag and stuffs ,
i would tell u honestly if i had too
fell free to msn with me yeah(;
so people love doesnt come easily

(:

Congratulations To FIS for winning
and to zeella
you never failed tom impress (;

You Had My Heart & Would Never Be Worlds Apart

2009-01-10T16:20:00.006+08:00

they say your aura is incredible
if u don't have to go
don't

friends?
they come and go as they wish
but real friends they stay through thick and thin
i have yet to found mine
i thought i did but maybe i was wrong
either i made the wrong move or maybe u don't deserve my all

Gorgeous Lindaaaa & Cheese Brown =)

My friday turn out to be awesome ya know
met linda and her sweet friend Liza @ heeren 8pm
she went for Brazilian Waxing
so now all licin eh lindaa
no more bulus for you =)
went to SAKURA for dinner and sumpah i never go there before
i ordered Chicken Fried Rice
Linda ordered Chicken Fried Rice with Salted Fish
linda abit strange actually =)
Liza Order something but i forget la
we took pictures while waiting and u can see those 2 like ugly jakons kay =)
i managed to finished up food clean as it was very nice

hello everyone
meet this irritating girl from hougang
apparently all irritating girls live there or the ulu2 place =)
her name is Liza age 19
but want to step 17
wake uppppppppppppppppppp girl =)
very nice person to mix with & guys she is available =)
any takers?
she is very jovial and open okay so dont least expect her to be diam2 lepu
she also kuat makan and kuat merepek
i am so gonna get a bite

after our makan2, we went window shopping
as apparently this pendek(u know who) wants to look for a dress for her friend
but couldnt find the right choice yet or simply some shops already starts to close
like its 930pm what do u expect
they also want to enjoy friday night
especially the aunties and girls
our next top was sheesha at Al-Majlis @ Arab Street
but i just felt sheesha is no longer my thing
as i cant hardly smoke it out
simply because its been a long time since i had sheesha
few months ago and furthermore i cut down on ciggies already
no more buying it but took puffs from friends if i had too
we ordered cokes and coke light for the 'overweight'
and ordered wedges too and had grape flavour and let pictures do the talking though
we spent like 2hours plus down there talking and just slacking around
apparently we had to used timer simpy because none of
us wants to be left out though
thanks to liza's who bought her digicamkok tengok ape dong
rindu abang lutut ya?=)smile because we on candy camera sheesha is where i can just slack and be myself
wow*shout*that pouty lips sumpah tak perlu and smoke it (:

we end up 1230 then get going to go home
it was a enjoyable night and i cant wait for another meetup
enjoyed each other's company
to those who are having love problems
fret not girls
life has its own ups and downs
take the risk and learn
or let the risk take u on a learning journey
but be strong in whatever that comes your where
because u never know when it would hit you right on your faceee
i be here if u need me
love doctor cheese brown (:

when the sunshine would shine together

2009-01-09T15:34:00.003+08:00

I have the sweetest smile of sin

well nothing much to talk about or update
just finish my night shift and i am still shag though
although i took leave the day before that
guess too much sleeping has cause my body to weaken
my appetite went down too
i dont eat much like before
but i wanna get fat and lean okay =)
so i can show i am the non-skinny one though
meeting linda later
the girl who never grows up because she is like one kiddy but the cute version la

there is something i am craving for though
a woman for my life
i guess i have been staying single for quite long though
its time someone deserve my love and my heart
and i am not going to repeat the same mistakes when i was with my other ex girlfriend
i cause a big shit too but it takes 2 to tango =)
no hard feelings the other one
well u can contact my brother by all means
but do respect me by tellin gme things he tell you which u think its not right
oh yeah my brother is capable of making good dramas =)
so better watch out and i dont want coming runnin to you okay
but hey peace to you okay
i just meant it to be nice and sweet
its 2009 babies and i have set a new record for myself and i know i can be someone all of you love to share
and yeah i am so tired now,gonna take a nap before meeting the kiddy
so long suckers =)

She Said Come Closer

2009-01-08T11:39:00.005+08:00

The Capital E with Randall Myself And -iForgotHisName-

When all were practicing lines,i just cant resist myself talking to the girl
nest to me and E captured the moment (:

End Of Day and Finally a Group Picture Taken (;

A Finale Picture taken With Daren from the Little Nyonya and The Cast

fuuuh
its been really a day of hectic schedule for me yesterday
jam packed from 9am-12midnght
i was so deadbeat by the time i reached home
morning went to meet brother adil with dad and do some errands
get a haircut and went straight to the filming ground at Orchid Park Condominium
took a cab there and E joined me as i called him for the shoot
we reached there around 4pm and slack around with the others as our scene were like around 7pm onwards and we ought to wait though
so ours was more like calefare and it was worthwhile
lots of chinese girls actually and pretty hot and tempting okay
lets the pics d the talking too
and yeah this shoot is about a drama thats gonna aired on 14february 08 @ channel 5 Starting Michelle Chong And Darren from little Nyonya
be sure to catch Randall Tan n Action too
its worth watching and details are not out yet
would inform you once its out (;
for now lets keep it hush2 yeah

and to shikin who tag me for being there
thanks for the tag though although this 2cents the smartypants seems harmless
buy hey i u felt what i felt
thank u so much okay (:
and cant wait for that event thats gonna happened

& best of luck to FHUNKIE STYLERZ for this saturday's comp
make your mama's proud (;

just gimme the light for me to shine right

2009-01-07T01:29:00.002+08:00

my eyes are pretty heavy now
but this seems i cant sleep yet
i have lots to do at a time
firstly i have do a calefare tomorrow
from 0330pm onwards with E and Hafa(if she doesnt have to work)
at Yishun Park Condominium
thanks a million to cordelia for the slot
really appriecate it so much though
although its kinda last minute but hey
its what i always wanted to be
spotlight and stuffs
slowly but eventually one fine day when i am stable enough to face all criticisms
=)
and yeah this one bloody guy got onto my nerves
i wanted to give him this slot but he thinks its like
"Jual Jubur Scheme"
so fuck him off and who needs friends like him
duit aku tak bayar nak banyak berbual
what the fuck but hey i am cool la =)
work has been pretty fine though
so far so good
been gelling well with everyone
stay all they way
i still got 11months to go before i eventually ORD-OHHHH!=)
i have planned my life well
just need a lil motivation and advises here and there
I'll be achieving my dreams like a normal person
roam the streets and make flowers bloom
the sweetest sin of my smile

since 2009 came
i been really thinking about myself
about the simple mistakes i did and the stupid shits
i realised i was really dumb at that time
but there is always room for improvement though
some things just dont go the way i wanted but i know its all god's will
but one fine day
you see me on top not just alone but reaching out my hand to you
=)
i seriously need 2 sleep now
good night everyone
and yeah
to 2cents
i appriecate the tag there
but i was lost and pissed off due to the fact its bought with my won money and all
try being me and leave a name please
and yeah u deserve 2ocents from me
hahah=)

i hate this part right here

2009-01-05T00:53:00.002+08:00

its 1255 in morning now and i am still awake
although i have lots of things to do tomorrow before starting work at 2pm
thought of dropping by mum's shop at St Joseph around 10am
and slack for a while
i have a very important task to do tomorrow and i pray hard i get approval
and today was very tiring for me though

wake up at 8am and get ready
took leave just to go cycling with
Ismail Linda Zul Myself
they were late as per normal
so we started our journey from
Pasir Ris-Changi-East Coast Park
and it was a helluva tiring okay
linda's tyre burst halfway and we couldn't continue our journey
then got a this malay lady with family did the extra mile of helping us
thanks to you we are much better after that(;
we stopped by at burger king around 2pm for lunch and i ate super lot
and my stomach is growing yeah
then we cycle again back to pasir ris and reach around 8on
its very hectic and i lazy to elaborate (:
i had lots of fun though

i am just a lilttle confused about myself now
the reputation the stand and the oaths i say
i am scared i couldnt fulfilled it and people would be dissapointed and thingk negative of me but what do they didnt know that is very hard to get away from this life cycle
i am so confused about this.no one i can turn to except Allah
and i hope it would give me guidance to be a better person

and to my special friend
do your best in everything
u have my support and your loved ones eah(:
keep smiling cheeky(;

and on top of that
my brother lost my hard earned camera
and he is going to pay back okay
its my own camera and he can lost it
what the hell
):

ONE'S GONE LEFT 2 TO PLEASE

2009-01-03T20:58:00.002+08:00

Updates Updates Yaw (;
well first and foremost
i am dead beat even though i don't really go out
except going to work and back home
my body's not functioning properly
although my appetite has grown up
i have been eating more and there is side effects
bloated uneasy stomach
but i am sure it would go off soon

so yesterday attended the In Service 09
very boring but next month's is interesting though
we gonna go Orchid Country Club for Paint Ball Event
so its gonna be super fly with the team around
finish around 6pm yesterday and slept like a log till 11p and couldn't sleep for the next 4hours
and go to work just now sleepyhead (:
today not so busy still can managed
Mr World is back in his shit already *grr*
burden or what

well yeah
here's a little update
the other half of me is gone
no more i guess
i dont want to hegeh2 contact you and stuffs
u seems busy so i wont disturb you
sorry for my flaws but if u wish to come back
by all means
but u guess u much more happier with all your friends
u dont need me
u dont have to call me
so i just live my life as per normal here
but whatever it is
i am just a call away uh
selamatt eh (:

Only I Can Change The Fate Of My Life

2008-12-31T09:32:00.003+08:00

its left to a day before the new year strike
and we all be leaving 2008 behind me and starting a new brand 2009
i am pretty sure all humans out there are scribbling resolutions on piece of paper
that's what i am currently doing now
instead of sleeping and getting a good rest after a hard night at work
i am here updating blog and watching house bunny on my DVD
too bad that i cant celebrate countdown as i am working tonight
never mind as long as i just do a back flip later (;
i am now squeezing my brains out on resolutions i wanna make
insyallah I'll be the new Haikel
changes takes time but with 2009
it would be a good year with a good start
no more nonsenses like last time
mistakes done and learned
RESOLUTIONS FOR 2009 (:
1.Be a better and capable independent man and a religious man
2.Have a better character and well- being
3.Be Honest and well-like by all kinds of people
4.Have a better career and better friends
5.A Diploma and well-secured job
6.Be a Role-Model and Superstar
7.Have a Happy and Supportive Family Friends
8.Be Physically Fit and Healthy and Lean Toned Bod(:
9.Do well in my NS and get good records
10.Be a Humble and Trustworthy
11.I want a GF soon with this qualities - Honesty Trustworthy Caring Beautiful Inside Out
FAITHFUL Understanding & Sweet Loving Who Accepts me for who i am (;
No one's perfect Though
12.Show my Special Friend She Is Worth A Man's Love(u know That Miss H)
just so u know,i care for you and i do have love for you,
13.Get My Dreams come true
14.Be less Sensitive and more lively open minded
15. Respect people with love and care
16.Treat everyone equally and to have zeella back
my sister whom i love so much(:
Hafawati my bestfriend whom i can always appreicate
17.Smile always and gained love from everyone
18.Be Back in the dance scene and dope like before
19.Make a gathering for all Y.H G.H VRA and happy occasion
20.Just being myself and a better haikel and well-liked by everyone with good luck all the way and a religious man and to yearn someone to love me and stick to that person all the way

i guess thats my resolutions
got alot but thats all i can say
i just hope it would turned out to be a very good year for me
free for big hardships and stuffs
to everyone
Happy New Year 2009
forgive me and forget all mistakes
i love all of you and just so u know
u are at the back of my mind (:

i am the ones that entertain

2008-12-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

helloHELLO
just felt like updating and i am supposed to sleep now
but eyes is not telling me to sleep
i need my bedtime videos @ Youtube
then i can sleep on my cozy sofabed
added new bed sheets and new comforter
gonna be in dreamland soon

work was fine
just a little busy as usual
and i plan to work somewhere to earn some extra cash
=)
just want to pass time
planning to start my studies in March and take the course that i want
alright
i am so shag
watch out for my updates and
to my dear shikin tembab
have a safe trip and dont drive too fast lah
semoga selamat pergi selamat pulang

and i miss hafa lor

Saying I love you Is not the words I want to hear from you

2008-12-25T16:46:00.004+08:00

Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know

Hello Everyone
Hope all bloggers are doing good (:
and yeah to special friend
have a safe trip and return safely alright
don't forget my CB gifts
i owed you one though

have been sleeping and staying home all the while since yesterday
saving money for rainy days
it is the rainy season
and yes i watch Beverly Hills Chi Hua Hua
found it on my DVD Shelf and it was kinda funny and little boring though
well basically i am just lazing around and getting ready as i am meeting Lindaa later on
Ismail might be joining us though after he finishes everything
anyway randomly
i just felt like falling in love again
sick of being single though
but i hope i find the right one soon
efforts made but waiting for the right time

work has been okay
just that i have to keep my mouth shut at times
too irritating this haikel (:
and not to create enemies
so far so good ((;

Uh Yes
i suddenly remember
Happy 17th Birthday To LydiaLiyana
Best Wishes Yeah(:
Semoga Panjang Umur Murah Rezeki
Wish U Another 5days of Memorable before the
2009 came it yeah
sorry for everything and hope u reading this
stay sweet and gorgeous
and dont worry
secret tetap secret dong (;
peace

alright
i guess thats all for now
and currently i am listening to
more then words by Frankie J
thanks to the Love Guru
and Jessica Alba is Damm Hot Lor ((:

its like im going insane yeah yeah

2008-12-23T14:17:00.002+08:00

behind this smile lies a certain reason for my life

[SPEAK]
certain things in life
u have to speak about it
because certain people just judge you without thinking
this is what i felt
to you whom i used to call Ciara
u are right at times about those human beings feelings and how they live their life
u know about it because u took that course and stuffs
but let me remind you again that not what u see is what u get girl
and not every of my blog is about you
and for your info when u told me not to mess around with you which i didnt
and again you are scaring me
its like my moves are being watch and that's scaring me
honestly i have no grudges against you
and yeah at times we may have some misunderstandings and i happened to blog it out to conversate my feelings with my blog
and hats what blogs are for
its for us to say out what we feel and our shout outs
i am sorry if at times i am like a big ass to you
but the irritating haikel is much more a different person
on the other note
its because of you
there is some words of you that totally change him
makes him much more matured
when u say u are nothing and that's why u are being used
i totally disagreed to that
because u are woman with brains
a woman with a good sincere heart
willing to go out and do a big favor for your friends
although u just dont have the right ingredients
honestly i appreciate you
and i am sorry if at times i am like a big jerk
forgive me for that
but at the end of the day
your name is what i looked for every night
true what u said
love cannot be force
i understand you and being a good Samaritan
i treated you the same
alright girl now you know this post is dedicated to you
the one and only
so dont say i never tell you
and physchoing kill =)

lets all eat our whole hearts out =)

2008-12-21T11:33:00.006+08:00

My workplace had a makan2 at chai chee seafood restaurant on friday which is 2 days ago
and we have hell lot of fun and everyone was enjoying followed by durian feasting
all went except Daryl and Hong kiat and Charles =)

baby imma gonna put up kind of show boy

2008-12-21T10:20:00.008+08:00

So many things happened on thursday and friday
and i am gonna update it here and now
so you all can have a look =)
i didn't blog it on the day itself as i was too tired or lazy
but i enjoyed every moment of it

Thursday @ 18/12/2008
8am
i met the others at NPPK and we proceeded to PCG @ Pulau Brani
as our filming was there
reached around 9 am and had breakfast
& immediately at 0945 we started filming and first scene was me and hairi
and yeah i am the penyagak
sial nye budak2
so it was very hectic as certain scenes i have to do a few times as some forget the lines
haha but it was a memorable experience for me
let the pictures do the talking alright as i am lazzzyyyy.
smile

LuLu,April.HaikeL
The soundman The Co-Director The Actor
we love taking pictures and they are so friendly
and helpful and i owe them alot yaw =)

"enough la take picture'
like hafa always say 'Sumpah muke tak perlu eh kek'

dont you think she is sweet =)

the car scene
when can i get my class 3 ??

Scene 2 with a smile

Preparations

Boy the Director
such a nice fella with very encouraging words

smile smile twist twist

the traineess doing their thing

when is the filming gonna finish

after half a day i think i look err fresh?

Overall i enjoyed every single moment
the hot sun the scenes that requires retakes
the fun and the love we all had
the jokes and stuffs
really was a good experience for me and the rest
but there is more i need to learn and be professional
i thank SPF for giving me a chance to be on T.V and also for me to gain experience
and yeah in case you dont know this video is for Crimewatch
once its all compiled up
i'll put it up here for a show
=)
and another filming tomorrow and its a club scene
yeah baby yeah
although i dont really club =)

took an oath imma stick it to the end

2008-12-17T23:15:00.006+08:00

Graphics Tee @ $35

let me update what i bought just now
and how much i burned my pocket (:
decided to spent extra this month
saving up the rest for driving
and also for rainy days

wallet@ $29
Boxers 2 @ $29
thats what i bought
i seriously need a new wallet as the old one is badly torn
and boxers to just add some colour for my below
what the fuck ((;
so i wont be spending anything else except food and travel concession
and yeah meet up with hafa and ifah just now
short but memorable
sorry had to leave early
gotta hit the sheets early for tommorow's filming
wish and pray me to do my best yeah
uh-uh
the pictures do the talking yeah

miss this gorgeous babe here
getting prettier eh

Kecoh is the new us =)

yeah my everyday bliss

the lesbians NOT
haha
alright i am so going to bed
need to rehearse my scripts and stuffs
wake up very early tommorw
i hope i put up a good act
=)

i just cant pull myself away

2008-12-17T01:30:00.003+08:00

before i update about the loss of my handphone in a taxi
and founding it back 10mins later
i wish to say to this two beautiful ladies
girls
wake up babes
u are being plain stupid
now the 2 of you come to me because u were cheated
but then when u were happily with him
where was I?
your dog picking up your coins when u drop it
i been the freaking shit at one time
saving your ass and i get the blame
but u still go with him despite all those harsh words and feelings
and now when he did it again
u felt cheated
i did warn you though
but u weren't listen
wake up girls
we men dont stick to one
but i do honestly
bur this has go to stop
to his ex
dont ask me why
i didnt get myself involved and dont make me do so alright
settle between yourself
you much wiser then me
period
girls
its time to put on the make up perfect smile
and move on and only god knows how to deal
period and peace
and to be fair to that guy
i dont wih to get involved ((:

and yeah
i went to meet a friend of mine and decided to leave around 12am and took a cab home
upon reaching home,i paid and left without checking and when i took the lift home
i was cursing myself
why?
i left my handphone in the taxi
i run like a mad man and call citycab and ask for the inquiries and stuffs
the lady was very helpful and she called me back 10mins saying my handphone is in safe custody and gave me the driver's contact number
i briefly thank her and called the driver
he said he drop by and sent my handphone here and i get it
pass him $10 as a token of appriecation
then got home with a sigh of relief
wrote an email to CityCab to thank both officers.
and that's all
and i wasted $32 on pizza hut today and its worth la
((:
thats all
cant wait for filming this friday and gathering ((:

2008-12-16T23:06:00.001+08:00

THIS IS WHAT I HAD FOR DINNER
$37 JUST FOR ALL THESE
FOR MY WORTHY STOMACH
=)

pop that sleeping pills dude

2008-12-16T19:32:00.002+08:00

TIRED SHAG
is all i can say
finally i can breathe easily
had few hours of sleep just now
better then nothing
just finish my second night shift yesterday which ends today morning
and its my first off today
but then i cant sleep due to the fact i have to attend the meeting for the
Ethics Video Seminar 2009
which showcases corruptions in the police force
no hard feelings
so it was at 11am,i went home first and took a 1hour nap
woke up and get ready and left taking the train to Novena
reach NPPK around 1030 and immediately change pass and went to the briefing room
to my surprise
there were regular officers from TRACOM
who have been chosen to act in this video
i just sat there with my weak body waiting for the rest and the management to arrived
so i was given a script and as usual
i am the bad person ((;
but its very hard for me to get myself in the picture as the actor
but i'll try my best though
so after few tryouts i got the ideas
and i am practicing now
((:
Shooting of Scenes is gonna be on Friday
and i hope i can still attend the gathering of my team
i pray hard as i dont want to be left out of the fun
so i hope all is okay
and honestly i began to see the light of line slowly
and i wish to make it a point that everyone makes mistake
we learn everytime we bleed
i am so tired
i am down for bed now or later
so pray hard that i put up a good acting skills
and to those who supported me
thank you i love you ((:

You Are Just Like A Circus =))

2008-12-15T18:54:00.003+08:00

have you ever wondered who is my best bestfriend?
the picture tells all
we contact almost every day and so far so good
yeah i love her
but strictly best friend ajerr noh
((;

Alhamdulilah Syukur
i thank Allah for the blessings given
i can now see of it more
i can see good things coming slowly
i am so happy and thankful
today was the day i can smile without fear
sorry for not updating my blog
so yeah had a bad day at work just now
had a little feud with the Mr "WORLD"
due to his fucking nonsense
been tolerating and yeah got the cheek to ate the pizza that i bought for the team with no occasion and u got the balls of fury to be a hypocrite to me
when i asked
dont wanna admit
haha,u talked too much
u live in your own world
people like you might survived
well yeah
u say i cant be successful
dont have to worry
the great has set aside how my life is gonna be
and how am i gonna make it worth living my life
come walking in my shoes and see what i do
i had to burst off because its fucking too much
so after night shift just now
had breakfast and went to CDC
for E-trial from 9-12pm and Basic Theory Test @ 1pm
alhamdulilah,after much stress
i passed and was told to get a Provisional Driving License and book Final Theory Test
so i waited almost 2hours and i just got my PDL only
and yeah while i was doing the E-trial
i got a call from the NPPK@ Ministry Of Manpower
it was a good news for
remember i went for the police video auditions and stuffs
i was being selected and to attend a meeting tommorow
what a double joy for me
alhamdulilah
i was soo happy and now i am lacking of sleep and my body is all weak
working later till tommorow and then straight to NPPK
just wish i could breath a little more later
other than that
mum is starting a school canteen in January
and i pray for her success
and i cant wait studying
and i just realised something
i could see a turning point in my life although problems seem so far away but its getting near
whatever it is
i know i got the right family and friends
amin

girl u are just the one i am looking for as friends

2008-12-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

TIRED TO EVEN UPDATE
good night everyone
muscle cramps due to traffic police mass jog just now

motivational post from motivational people =)

2008-12-11T23:18:00.001+08:00

How to Get Motivated and Set Goals: The Top Ten Tips

It’s easy to get motivated to do something you enjoy. The trick is to learn how to self-motivate to accomplish the things that involve practice that you don’t enjoy. Follow these Top Ten Tips to increase motivation and to set goals that are truly achievable.

1. Define your goal. You’ve got to clearly understand where you want to end up before you begin any journey. Set goals that are realistic and specific.

2. Don’t try to do everything at once. Limit your goals to follow a one-at-a-time model. Rome wasn’t built in a day.

3. Make your goals public. Tell those close to you what your goal is and that you want their feedback and support as you work toward your set goals. Ask them to ask about your progress.

4. Break down your goal into manageable mini-goals. Get expert help in how to organize your plan to achieve success.

5. Set personal rewards for achieving each of your mini-goals. Behavioralists are right—positive reinforcement stimulates sustained effort.

6. Start small, but start. Starting small can produce big results. Even the longest journey begins with a single step, but you have to take that step. Start by spending just ten minutes extra each day, working toward your set goals.

7. Practice correctly. More golf swings do not improve a golf game. Expert advice and coaching makes a difference.

8. Practice consistently but don’t over-do. Limit practice to avoid burn-out. An object in motion tends to stay in motion. So keep moving to accomplish your set goals.

9. Avoid procrastination. An object at rest tends to stay at rest. Make consistent effort a habitual practice. However, if you miss practice, forgive yourself and then start again.

10. Evaluate your progress toward your set goals and be flexible. What is working and what needs adjustment? Do the set goals or practice need refinement? Get expert, or at least, objective help to properly evaluate.

I know you,got a clue what u doing

2008-12-10T22:58:00.002+08:00

i have nothing to do and i am going to sleep now
my eyes are tired due to what happened just yesterday
i dont wish to speak it out
there is a reason why am like this people
hate me or love me
its still an obsession
sorry if the way i behave makes u diss me
but this is haikel and this is how i lead my life
i am wild in my own ways
i dont need you to be my pillow
i do need a girlfriend but no one is the perfect one
or yet to find that can understand my simple needs
there is one but i rather have special feelings for her
because we can still maintained our friendship
i thank you for that and always motivating me
to the other one
u are still in your own world
us till giving guys the way to bring you down again
i guess u might suck at love but u score and hit jackpot on life education
thanks uh eh
i am not just a boy that u can be arrogant okay
i have a face and i took care of it
i spend some time alone just now doing my salary stuffs
minus things i need to minus
and things to buy and i seriously need to shop
planning for a movie marathon with hafa on Saturday and escape on Sunday
depends if my body is functioning well
everything is well
and hope work colleagues are much more fairer towards me
but i am cool with it
driving test coming up soon next week
i seriously need to study
i think thats all folks
gotta hit the sheets now ((:

i hate this part right here and i just cant take this tears

2008-12-09T23:40:00.004+08:00

i just wished my smile was a everlasting one
it melts some people
and i thank god for whatever he had set out for me and my life
i wish and prayed for the best and forever
this is what i have been keeping
and last advice
never divide your love
<3 ((:

this is the story

when shall all this problems stop?
when can see my family's happiness?
when is that?
why things i wanna achieved so hard to come by?

i love them((:
the family that kept me going

they are my blood
separating is what they want now
but how about my another 2 brothers?
i just felt like ending myself
well i almost did just now
i love my mum so much
she can be a bitch at one time
oops sorry
but which mother doesnt?
i defended her no matter hw bad the situation is
sometimes i am angry with the way mum treated me
but i still love her so much
she does everything for me
although mostly i do
she never fails to ask me
have i eaten and how's my day?
is just a but but its the thought that matters
i dont know why so suddenly i love my mum so much
only god knows how i felt
i started prayng a week ago and i maintained it
i am not boastful here but i guess its time i change for the better
i am not that good boy yet
i still smoke and sometimes vulgarities is my second language
but thanks to colleagues
i dont know
i decided to take a private diploma in communications @ APMI Kaplan
but a good soul told me its not recognized in SPF
so i got to check with the manpower tommorow morning
its time i break the chain of my family
be the first to earned big bucks without getting spoiled and wild
i keep praying for the best of my mum and dad
but it seems futile
looks like im joining the boats of friends whose family is divorce
and i dont know if i can cope
my dad is a n easy going where he agrees to almost everything
where else my mum is abit difficult to convince and we need 1000words to let hergive blessing
maybe because mothers know best
i love both of them so much although i dont really showed
let me tell you the dramas of my live
i have two lovely brothers
one named Danial 16years
and one named Adil 15years old
both were really i love so much
who doesnt?
from young i carried them,we had laughter
even did evil deeds together
but as we grow up the bond started to loosen up
my danial went inside boys home and still inside there for deeds he did and to reimburse himself,he went in and i lost a hope in himnot because he cant change
but because i lost someone i could talk to
share jokes and even when comes spring cleaning
when both of us just felt like cleeaning the house
and when he comes home every weekend now
we rarely meet because of my shift work
and i am always busy when he's not
but we did managed to smile and a pat on the ack
followed by some stupid arguments and i love him so much
he's my blood
as for my adil,he is the cutest and the laziest but still adorable
he was a very good boy since young and smart too
all of us thought he be the best and near to perfect
but one fine day the world around him changed him
he wasnt what we imagined
he smoked and stuffs and did out of things that he supposed not to do
he gets probation and soon he entering a place where he can be taught to appriecate things and change and that place has the religious activities
and all i can say i hope for all the best in him and danial
i just hope all this hardships are temporary and i want to see a brighter future where they can feed my parents and their future family
they are always in my prayers and i knew they are borned for a reason
some people out there dont go through what i went but i appriecate to the Great
because it taught me about simple things and hardships of life
i am thankful i can control myself
i have done bad deeds more than they did but i always make a pact not to get my family involved
u all can despise my family and stuffs but not in front of me
because i skin you alive for sure
alhamdulilah
when i get nearer to God,i have many problems because i can see Gos's main intentions
and to add to that
lucky i dont have a girlfriend although i crave for that
i am just not ready
with just 500plus a month,i cant even feed myself
but i made a point to give some to my mum to get
her blessings and 'berkat'
there is alot people dont know about me
the way i live my life
but there is people out there who have harder hardships but they can go on and change it to a better life
i want to meet the people to share and motivate me to be a better person
i swear i want the best for my future and i really want to bring at least 5k a month
but a good soul reminded me this which i planned to ake a motivation sentence for me
"there is no easy life to a easier route"
i got to agree with her
thats what i went through
but people always think i am a happy person which at times i fake it
because i simply dont want people to think i am a person who always wanted sympathy
that's not how i run my business
education is very important
singapore is for the people who are rich
and i guess i got to agree
we are a globalized country with lots of business and building opportunities
Singapore is stating that it wants to be just like US and all those countries that is making well in the industry
and i want to be such person to be there where money is really not an issue
and also i want to be there to prove that i don't forget my religion
for those people who don't pray,its time to slowly start
it doesn't mean i am a holy boy now
NO,i have lots to learn and i hope i stayed this way
one of the reasons or the good things i get when i started praying to Allah
is every time i forget a prayer,i felt a sense of guiltiness
and i tried to do it as soon as possible and i do laze around and delay the time
i really want to set my life straight and anytime fate can just come to me and said
my time is up and i am afraid i wont have time to be prepared
and talking about this makes me a cry boy
i love my dad's mum so much
both sides i mean but at times i felt she is being unfair is her love
but i just hope one day god would opened up her eyes and let her see better
which actually god has opened up a bit but she doenst realize though
she is a great cook and great adviser and shows the love
but at times i felt she should be fair to all parties
nevertheless my cousins have been the best
the Hafiz's Fam Nadiah's Fam Andee's Fam Fateen's Fam
all their parents are very concern although at times some of the girls can be a witch
the one reading this should know and smiling i guess
my bad ((;
& back to where i started
i just pray and hope for happiness of my family and i shall start treating them as it is
dad,forgive me for saying words that are not meant to be said
but i guess words just came out when i was angry
after a smoke i felt much relaxed and i just keep praying for the best of my future
amin
and on top of that
to the soul who chatted with me just now
who takes time telling me things to wake myself up
and also about education
i thank you and you can be one in a million
till then
am so sleepy now
i am working later in the morning and i need some sleep
thanks for taking the time to read and so on
i love you guys
and please show me signs of inspirational words ((:
to those i have hurt
please for give me
and i love you my family

thought you could show me the path

2008-12-09T19:14:00.002+08:00

that's it girl
i am seriously out of your life
u made use of me for your own good
u are good terms with him now
u dont need me
thanks for the times u gave me
i shall remember it for life
and it has to go on as per normal
sorry girl
i just had to let you go
like i said
u dont need me anymore
thought u could guide me in my studies and stuff
but i guess i was wrong
i have myself to compete
that;'s it
i dont wish to argue
u take care
whatever it is
i am just a call away
i maybe not good looking or what
but i have a heart filled with sincerity and pureness of love
take care

My chick can have wha she wants And go in any store Buy any bag she want

2008-12-08T01:04:00.002+08:00

here i am once again
still not asleep and blogging
should have gone to work instead of taking leave
i had to clear my leave though

boring eh
but at the bright side
i can go prayers tomorrow
well yeah
i texted shahmee saying i had good food and
that fat adam called me ask me come back work
because not enough people and i really thought he was serious
when suddenly he said
kau rrreeelllaaakkk sua
:)
what the hell
haha,
then talk2 before he got report to do
haha
pape eh gemuk ,..

i need a break in the tropical springs
and i need a girlfriend soon
hahahahahaha =)

to all muslims
selamat hari raya aidil adha

Got everybody watching what I do Come walk in my shoes & see the way I'm living if you really want to Got my mind on my Life & i'm not going nowhere

2008-12-07T16:30:00.018+08:00

6 December was a retreat for us Traffic Police
It was Our Traffic Police Family Day 08
and its my first time there
it was held at Road Safety Park
9-3pm and tickets were going for $5
it was compulsory and that's why sold out =)
so i met Irwan and Fadzulie @ Eunos MRT at 845am
and we saw the makcik "beyonce" =)
the rest macam susah nak bangun
we go ahead and reached there 15mins later
so when we reached they went to register for the soccer
and i didnt joined them thinking that all soccer is full
then to cut short,some didnt come on time and stuff
so we just waited and eat and food was great
saw my friends there
even kak ju came slightly late so
let the pics do the talking
uh-uh

Simply they have nothing better to do ((:

Masirwan'S Girlfriend who is my everyday bliss
she helps me alot about life and here i am
she is gorgeous isnt she ((:

With OC and Commander Traffic

dont think i am really smiling
i was half afraid although they said the snake is harmless
its heavy and the skin felt so different and i force myslef to smile
only God knows how i felt at that time but i still dare to take a pic of it okayNever mind what haters say, ignore 'em 'til they fade away

Amazing they ungreatful after all the game I gave away
Safe to say I paid the way for you cats to get paid today
You'd still be wasting days away, now had I never saved the day

this hambali gonna ORD in few days
hope the best for you man
i can see the smile is fake
thanks to the snake
so yeah =)
take care man
sorry for the troubles

this two cant never grow up u know +)
irwan and shikin
thet TL who doesnt take sides
and the one who understands
she with the soon-2-be ORD boy

Fatimah and her Chubby son
so cute
geramm je

this is me and saleha
i just find her sweet at times

k k kau main ni side aku main ni side,kau takmo risau pasal yg lambat dan bubble
kite boleh handle uh ((:

Kak Juremah with Suraya
she was a former staff at OTB
she is doing well ya know
that cute little boy is Alfian
kak ju's son

so i guess enough of pictures
went home around 3pm
thanks for giving me a lift
and slept like a log

have this litle though by myself
i just hope what i do is going right and smoothly
i trued to fullfill the 5 time a day prayers
and i hope i get barakah from the Great
and this is my blog
i dont boast around but i said waht i said

i am stuck in between with nowhere to run

2008-12-06T02:06:00.002+08:00

i get myself caught again in this line
i vowed not to really be in the middlemen yet
i still forgo myself just to be nice and i lose a friend
it wasnt really a friend as we just a colleaque but we do share the laughter
but everything changes around me so fast
till i dont know how to react
my back was turn away now
see
i didnt want to be the middlemen and now i was blame
what have i done to deserve all this?
but wait
how could i settle peacefully with him?
whenever i heard his name or he's near me
i felt so different
to be specify
angry or fear or guilty
i dont wish to play behind your back but its like i was left with no choice
i am really sorry
i realised a part of me
maybe i was wrong
maybe i was right
i dont even know where to start
it seems i lose everything
Trust.Friendship.Teamwork
yeah maybe its true
u all pretending behind my back
even so i was still nice to all
i never hated u guys or create dramas
i shared everything with u guys
please turn your head and look at that
i am so down now
its like i am entering depression mode soon
somebody please help me
i have submit myself to allah and i hope he gave me the correct path
where i can correct my mistakes
i have lost another special friend
what more?
what more to come haikel?
i am lost without guidance

to ciara
i am feeling awkward now
it seems i am to blame for all this shits
intentions were good but people dont see it that way
i am lost without a book of guidance to show me
i cant hide my feelings of uncomfortably
i felt so different with my clan
like they want me to go away
but each day i pray to the one above to show me the correct path i dont know
all i need is someone to talk to too
please?)):

all i have was good intentions

2008-12-05T00:44:00.002+08:00

When your world falls apart, like shattered glass
Glass, glass, glass

i have made the wrong move dude
i shouldn't be nice to you
now u telling me things that are suppose to be untrue
i don't know if i should trust your words
but i have lose respect on you seriously
i dont need a friend like you
i saved the wonder woman
u hate me for that dude
u may think i am in fear just now
yes i was because i am stuck in between
but it was a learning point for me though
i realised the goodness i did was not enough for all of you
what more you want?
why must be a hypocrite towards me
make my life a lil miserable
i really had enough
one day i am gonna sit down and just talk to this colleaques
i change alot for your fucking info
and that special one knows
but i still took up my courage to be fearless
The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't want to try now
All that's left is goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here

i am lost myself
where should i start now
i learnt the basic needs of friendship
and u gonna ORD soon
i wished u all the best
forgive me for all my mistakes
u take good care and hope u find true love
sorry once again brother

to ciara
i do this for u
sincere and just want the best for u
i am still lost now and please keep it between us
i just cant take your tears and i did these all for u
since u really treasure me a lot as we are good friends
Everyday seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me
i dont know where to start now
but i hope for the best
imma keep myself low

to the special one of there
maybe it was meant to be bad ):
i cant take it any longer
i need time for myself

just when i thought she was different

2008-12-04T01:10:00.001+08:00

life has to go on
she is worth my tears
but what goes around comes around
i do trust and appreciate u
but it seems u putting the blame on me
i am out for good
u want me so
here i am

too bad for you you just cant find the right companion

2008-12-03T22:52:00.002+08:00

oh baby
looks like somebody is finding fault with me again?
yeah its my fault because i never showed love to u
but i still treat u special
u are still special
still a good special friend
i got hafa's as my bestfriend
i got my ciara
and with u leaving my dear special friend
it hurts me knowing u were there during my train wreck
i thank u for everything
even if i were in bad shape or having bad hair day
i dont blog about u just because i am angry with myself
but u dont sweetie u follow your emotions too much
now u are making me guilty by writing those shits in your blog
oh yeah i forgot
your blog your world and yeah i got my style of living my life
aye aye aye
but i dont hate you
because i have commit myself to the one and only
the one who created all this
the one above is all i need for my life aftermath
now the above is just borrowing the world to us
i dont want to talk big here
i hope i continue commiting myself to him
i felt good each time i do the orders given
but i hope u can think properly before making any decision
imma be the same
right
and just know that u are still someone i appriecate

to my little cute ciara
with that hot locks that bounces
u are making heads turn ya know
i think thats all for tonight
and yeah

britney was awesome

i hate this part right here

2008-12-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

this is for my ladies
:))

i felt wrong somewhere
i felt guilty for telling u
but somehow somewhere
my cute little heart tells me i should tell you
maybe because i like u?
crap!
maybe because i care like u
and yeah your curls turn me on ya know :)
my ciara ((:
well sweetheart
whatever u do
be honest with your own feelings
i dont want in the end your feelings and emotions take over u
its not fair for u but sometimes u gotta learn the hard way baby
it makes u a better and mature person
some of us are born to be gifted where we have no problems
but some of us are born normal and to face all this to makes us the same level of the gifted ones
they might be 2 steps ahead of us
but we can catch up with them by making effort
i myself don't trust or believe in love
but why should i forbids and punish myself from falling in love?
while the other party just be in love with someone
nope
there is not my style babes
i learn my mistakes and overcome those eerie feelings
i make myself better by encouraging myself not by those compliments given
i used that once a while to upbring myself
and do people appreciate us for being nice to them?
sacrifice our love for them
do they or they are just making use of us?
use the theory my friend
find solutions not just dead end decisions that shall leave u in guiltiness
i am feeling different now after what i tell u
i cant leave u hanging alone because i know how it feels
it hurts in me at times to hear people talk about u
just because u are a hot topic
learn to be grateful to yourself
think about yourself than other first
i am always here when u need someone to cry on
u can trust me
i would make this right this time
i maybe a different person u see
but i guess u know the good side of me ((:
i just want you to be sure what u want to do with your life
if u made the wrong move
learn from it by climbing over the edge to see the beautiful mountains
like aku macam merepek pulak =)
we dont make mistakes for a reason
but from my own experiences
i felt good i turn to allah and i hope it stays that way
Amin
Ciara**
this is for u
i want the best for you okay (:

U are just like a CIRCUS

2008-12-02T17:28:00.000+08:00

i told u before
Britney is the new sex
today 2december she turned 27th
pretty much she has grown a lot
happy birthday to her
best wishes from me and singapore ((:
hope she make her comeback a best decision and worthwhile
pray for her people
because she is sensational
and she is still the best through her 10 year career
she is your everyday entertainment from now on ya know
lets hope she have a great birthday plus she is a very good mom to her kids
Go Britney Spears.
we from Singapore support u all the way
Jyeah
Britney is the new SEX ((:

There are two types of girls out there,ones that can handle and the ones that are scared

2008-12-01T19:21:00.007+08:00

thats the side view of me

i have been well
sorry for the late update
been busy with work and life
nothing's new except my two boys
Ahmad & Hambali Gonna ORD soon
take care boys
Ahmad is the Cool Type while Hambali is the Handsome but Mentel
right ((::)
hambali in white and ahmad in brown
the one is black is fadzulie yang da jalan
and the one yg kening putih irwan la
all the best to the 2 of them

well
i went to expo yesterday with dad
he bought this laptop @ 899
all the nest uh eh
and he borrow me $88 to let me buck this DVD drive for my laptop
its kind bulky but it can do wonders
can burn print and stuffs
i hope i grab a good deal
so far i tried once yesterday and it was good :)
i tried again later
watching susuk now
its very useful movie but dont ever think about that girls
i attracted to natural beauty girls only
hahahaha

tomorrow working morning shift
gotta sleep early soon
wanna start fresh tomorrow
i want to be more focus at work
so i can create good impressions on myself

just a little update on myself
i check Kaplan education website and they are offering
Part-Time Diploma In Communications
but the fees are $3000/- plus havent come the GST
i was shocked but somehow it did demoralise me
how am i suppose to get that money?
but i find a way to do that
i'll shall put half of my pay for the course
because mom and dad are financially tight too
with the recession going on
luckily my aunt is very concern
and i am going for the talk on Wednesday @ Cuppage Road
to view the exibitions and see if i can get good deals
pray for me
i have nothing else to say now
mind is blank

i feel like starting a relationship but at times
i felt happier like this i dont know la
oh yeah
shada wanted to make a gathering for us GH
hope everyone is there
keep the hatred and grudges away
its the new year coming
all of us should start a new
whatever happens last time
was a life lesson
memories of hatred is enough
i lean my lesson
i dont need friends to keep me happy and all
i just need Allah and my family
and to someone who thinks your friends are better
by all means
go away
u dont aprriecate me at all
for years of friendship dude
go away
i dont need you man
take care
because u come back to me at the end ((:
haikel is cool now